Please remember me

I know this should probably be posted in the General forum but quite frankly my self-esteem can't take another hit when I receive very few responses there or God forbid, more negative ones or attacks. I feel very raw on that forum now. I feel more comfortable and safe in this forum.

Anyway, I'm sure y'all know that I'm in the darkness of the abyss. Is that still or again? Geez, I'm losing track now. You must also notice that I've hardly been posting lately, must've sent y'all into a state of shock I'm sure.

Anyway, to the point of this thread, I'm going to be going through an extremely emotional week this week. Could I please be so bold to ask if you could remember me. I'm not sure how all this is going to affect my already extremely depressive cycle. To say that this week is going to be difficult for me is an extreme understatement. Just looking for some good vibes, prayers, whatever you can send my way that is positive. I might be absent the entire week or more if I shut down even more. All I know is that some very negative things are going to happen and I'm not going to cope with them very well. I need all the support I can get. Right now I'm going back to bed, where I've been spending all my time lately. Too depressed to do much else. Thanks.

I'm sorry that I haven't been here and won't be over the next little while to keep up with what each of you are going through and offering my support. I feel really bad about that.

Feel better. The board seems to be giving a negative vibe lately (at least for me). You're not the only one avoiding coming here.

Thinkin of ya.

Angel Girl, I don't know how we can help to be supportive of you if you're not here to interact with us. I miss you when I stop hearing for you.

Being supportive is a two way street, ya know.

And if I'm the "negative" you refer to, I'm sorry. I'm starting to see you're hardy the only one feeling that way.

I have to learn to just shut up.

1day

I'm sorry to hear that others, including yourself, are feeling the same way about the site. I tried to delete this request but I was too late. Anyway, thanks for thinking of me. I hope you're feeling better about the site soon. (((((((((((1day)))))))))))

Please don't jump all over me. I'm not referring to you or anybody else on this site or the site itself. I'm referring to some major family stuff I have to go through. I'm sorry I'm so down to not offer support. I usually can but I'm too low now. I thought everyone would understand.

AG, I understand now and I'm sorry.

I'm in a real bad place right now and I guess I see what I souldn't in what you say.

Please don't be too much of a stranger.

I miss you during the times you're away.

You have to remember your not the only one going through stuff right now and were still here to support

This isn't a negative comment but a loving observation of Angel Girl.

I get frustrated with her at times because I see so much potential in her.

But she does not (or will not) see it and it's right there in front of her!

I won't give up on you, Angel Girl.

Gary I love her too I just wish she could see how it affects us
Angie

I'm sorry I have such a negative effect on y'all.

No negative effect just that we care so much it hurts us to see ya put yourself down

it's hard not to put yourself down when you have no self-esteem and nothing seems to be going right in your life. it just seems to be one thing right after another and there's only so much that a person can take.

I agree with Angie.

When someone I care about such as you AG puts herself down the way she does, it hurts me.

In no way am I attempting to lay a guilt trip on you, AG.

If you look TOOOOOOO hard for the constant approval of others, such expectations will never be met (in YOUR mind) and it's just a no win cycle.

Maybe it's because I've been rejected and abandoned so many times. It always happens, even on this site. I just want to be loved and maybe when anybody starts to show me any kind of love, I don't feel I can trust it, I'm waiting for it to be snatched away from me, as it inevitably always is. Oh, and I'm not saying at all that I'm blameless whatsoever because I know that i'm not. And it's not about the other person either, it's about me. Something others rarely understand so they take it personally, when in fact, there is no reason for them to do so. Maybe I don't feel worthy of anybody's love. Why would I when I lose it as fast as I get it.

Angel Girl, I think you really don't feel worthy of love from others. Hey, I feel the same.

This is very common for depression.

You take it to such extremes and, even if you don't know you are doing so, you will make every effort possible to see that you always get the results you expect. Please think about it.

Now, for something more positive.

To know you is to love you.

To know the real you is to love you

Just want to offer Angelgirl a big hug and to say I am here. I can relate to feeling in such a place that your head can't offer support to others, even thogh you would dearly love to give it (while knowing that all our 'places' are different).

For what its worth, heres a plain and simple hug for you.

(((((((((((((((Angelgirl))))))))))))))

You hurt so much, please take care..........Poppet