[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((time0)))))))))))) I am sorry you are feeling so blue.

I'm sorry! I don't have the right to say anything. I am going to keep quiet. Shhhhhhh.........

Thank you! ((((((Bipolarbear)))))))))

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((time0)))))))))))))))))

a quiet hoping you're ok. *whispering* here it's ok.

kd

Time O! What's wrong? Why are you sighing and being quiet?
Well, whatever it is...
((((((((((((((((TimeO))))))))))))))))))))))))!!!!

[hillbunnyb]

timeO: wanna borrow my flashlight and look at your favorite book under the covers for a little while?

Thank you to all of you!

I hope you're feeling better.

It is all my fault that I am in this mess. So I have no right to talk about it. But sometime I get so so sad that I can hardly whole. I can hardly breath. It is these times that I do write a couple of words even though I shouldn't.

Like some people have said: "If you are in a bad situation, there is always a way to get out." Yes there is a way but not without braking hearts. I can't do that. I can't hurt people.

So I'm shutting up. Not talking about it. Shhhhh.....

Thank you for your kindness and caring!

[hillbunnyb]

Hey timeO, I forgive you for not being "perfect", whatever that is....... can you maybe forgive yourself, just a little bit, for just a little while? I've screwed up plenty, You're not alone on that one, Learning to forgive myself was one of the hardest things I've ever tried to do. I think it's worth the effort, it unstuck me from a very hard place. You are worthy of forgiveness. Hang in there, ok.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((Time0))))))))))))))))

My fault is to not have completally closed my door on him. It was my mistake. My fault. Pity and the love of my children has opened up that door. He is now full time in my life again.

Do I deserve your support? Not at all.

Thank you!

[SweetSunshine]

Timo ~
Whether you want it or not , you got our support hon. Thats what we are here for ok? Let us help you thru this. Let us be the ones that can and will listen so you dont have to go thru this alone!

Abusers are masterminds at kniving there way into our lives. THEY break us down ... so they get us where they want us. This is not your fault!!! Please dont ever think that ok? Its going to take some time to put him back out on that doorstep ok? But once it happens and you get that feeling of wanting to let him back in. Your gonna have us behind you and your gonna feel it too that you can say no to him. And your gonna know its ok even if it does break your kids hears, cause you made the right decision to protect all of you from him. Just keep your chin up there ok?

Hugz~
Bethy

Thank you!

I am speechless. This is so hard sometime.

I appreciate your caring, kindness and understanding. Thank you so much! I don't know what to say I'm crying.

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((Time0))))))))))))))))) Only you can know what you need to do for you and your family. What you did was very unselfish for your children. I only hope that you are safe. I agree we are here for you. Please take care of yourself too.

[SweetSunshine]

Tim0 Its ok to Cry too!!!!!! We who have been abused dont feel that we deserve to have and feel our emotions. We are made to feel like we are NOTHINGS... and that cant be farther from the truth ok? You've got a right to feel everything you do. Just make sure when you feel happy about something.. you really let yourself feel it. Seems like when we go thru all this stuff, that one emotion doesnt come by often enough for us.

And your most soiiiiiitenly welcome . I'm here pm me anytime you need to ok? I will do my best to help you out. Just remember your never alone!

Hugz~
Bethy

[hillbunnyb]

timeO, Hey, Life is just: do over do over do over isn't it?
I never get things right the first time either. (Let's not talk about the second time, the third time, etc..) All we can do is regroup and try again, huh? I care about you.

Someone online told me:

"You are f****** crazy to have let him in your life again! Well it is your friggin life! If you enjoy being abused off well don't come to me for help!"

First of all, I rarelly ask for help or support. Only when I feel I will not be able to hold on.

Second, this person doesn't know me and the reasons behind my choices.

Third, I do not pressure anyone to help me out.

Forth, I wish this person would have really stab me instead of saying that I "enjoy abuse".

I do not know if I will be able to ask for help if things get worst. I don't know. Maybe I will if I can shut down that voice that is telling me not too.

I am so grateful that you are all here for me. I didn't expected any replies. You have touch my heart!

Thank you so very much!

[Lexicon78]

Are you gonna be ok? I sure hope so...hang in there and it will get better. I'm sure of it.

[hillbunnyb]

Yo, in my humble opinion, name callers and blame blasters are in worse shape than you timeO. We're all doing our best, nobody can take more than one step at a time (and hope it's not quicksand or deep water or...). Thanks for the pm. Hang in there, k?

Thank you for caring! I will be ok.