[2bme]

Got back yesterday after a very strange and confusing app with my pdoc and T. I had extreme lows the last couple of months, but for about 5 days I havn't been able to sit still, keep my mouth shut and keep my anger in check. I've been treated for MDD, Social Anciety and on the side Porfyria. Now they tell me I'm Hypomanic and change my diagnose to Bipolar II, Social Anciety and PTSD. Took away half of my anti depressants and added a anti-psycotic. I really don't need this. Just started dealing with hectic crap. Anyone else had a change in diagnose after many years?? I actually like this state. Talking to people, eye contact. I feel alive.

[Open Eyes]

(((((2bme)))))) Yes sadly this CAN and often DOES happen 2bme and YES sometimes it can take years to get to the truth unfortunately. And often people can be put on a drug programs that can make matters worse. I went through that myself and from where I am now knowing what I now know looking back and seeing the mistakes, well, it never did help my condition of PTSD at all, in fact it made it worse and that did not have to take place.

Unfortunately PTSD can present conditions and reactions in a patient that CAN be misunderstood as other disorders. And unfortunately, professionals DO make mistakes and JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS. And so can the people around the person who is truely struggling with PTSD.

Oh, I am sorry that you have experienced this, because the one thing you DO deserve is to feel safe, be understood and get the support and therapy you truely need. Hopefully that will take place now for you 2bme, I am very sorry you had to suffer through this and unfortunately you are not the only one that has experienced this.

(((((Hugs)))))

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[2bme]

Thanx, that makes me feel better. Just knowing others had the same experience. Sometimes I do feel quite alone in all the crap. I must honestly say that coming to this group especially has already been very helpful. My first stop on PC was a other forum where I realy got confused and severly triggerd. I feel safe here. I do hope things can just get calmer. My insides feel like it is vibrating and my anger is threatening to take over. Seeing a 1 next to my post soothes me instantly. Thank you.

[Open Eyes]

((((Hugs 2bme)))) I am sorry you got triggered in another thread. Sadly that can happen but please don't let it get you down, try to learn from it, that is what I so myself. Sometimes I get triggered and find out something I never realized about myself, that is the strange thing about PTSD.

I can only speak for me dealing with my PTSD, yes, it can be very lonely and it is so hard for others to understand as well. Glad you found PC where you can hear this, know your not alone and you can slowly work through it.

Do you have a good therapist now?

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[2bme]

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Yes, she is very good. We only recently started working on my past when I triggerd in the bathroom before a session. Everything just spilled out! It was so weird. She is very patient with me and after every session she will talk me down. I'n a bit scared of what will it be like when we finished working through it. I changed into the person I am because of the various traumas in my life. And hate this one just as much as the previous one! What will be behind the walls? I'm ranting, sorry.
Some part of me is carefully optimistic that things can get better.
(((Hug)))

[Open Eyes]

((((2bme)))),

Keep that optimism, it is very important to your healing. Yes, I do know the fear as well, be very patient and kind to yourself, make sure you self sooth a lot and remind yourself that you did survive it, you are working on resolving it in your mind so you can slowly move on. Yes, I hear you about feeling like you are a different person, me too. Don't be alone now, come here and talk whenever you need it ok?

((((((Hugs))))
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[Sannah]

Sounds like you found your anger? This is the route of healing. Good work opening up to your T. Keep going! Keep us updated on how you are doing? One definition of depression is anger turned inward. You changed this.