Therapy tomorrow

I am seeing my group counselor tomorrow. I'm nervous about it, b/c we are going to be talking about what happened b/t me and my foster dad back in January, and that will inevitably bring up what happened fourteen years ago. I'm really stressed out. I don't understand why I'm feeling what I'm feeling. I mean, I KNOW what he did was wrong. . .both times. But at least this time, he didn't physically hurt me. And if could forgive him before for physically/sexually hurting me, why is it so hard to forgive him now? And yet, I love this man. I love him and I love my foster mom. . .they are the ONLY real parents I've ever had, and they are very much "nanny" and "pappa" to my children. I have two younger brothers as well. I don't know how to handle this situation.

Just because someone doesn't physically hurt does not mean that they did not hurt you. Sometimes psychological abuse can be worse than physical abuse. When you have to talk about what happened in group just remember that it has already happened and it will not happen again. The fact that you were able to forgive you foster father once leads me to believe that you are a strong person.... I am sure you will be fine in group

Good Luck,
Jason

(((((((((((Gracey)))))))))))
Just want to give you my support!!!

I'm wishing you good luck in therapy.. I can understand your feelings. Like others have said, just cause you weren't physically hurt doesn't mean you weren't hurt. Also, I think it's quite possible that you have difficulty forgiving your foster father now cause it's not the first time he hurt you..at least, that's my own experience. But, to me, the fact that you were able to forgive him sends the message that you have a lot of strength within you. *hug* if it's okay.

I'm hoping your meeting with your group counselor went well. It must be very hard to sort out all the feelings both good and bad that you are experiencing. I hope your counselor is helping. Good luck with your healing.