disgusted

does it happen to anyone that the past comes to the present and causes you to reinjure yourself in dangerous situations. then i don't know if im more disgusted with myself now or later and it all floods back. i hate myself.

yes, I think I know where you are coming from ((((((( safe hugs ))))))) if ok

thanks for caring, fuzzy... i had a horrible T session today. i kept pushing my T away and she noticed.. she kept asking if I trust her. I just don't want anyone to care about me.. or to feel anyone's care. It hurts.. I feel like she was so frustrated with me.

if anyone wants to chat.. i'll be in support for a while.

There is a book about that, referring to it as "Trauma Reenactment Syndrome." I could be mixing things up, but I think the name of the book is "Women Who Hurt Themselves." It's by Dusty Miller. http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/046...918369?ie=UTF8 Amazon has a couple of copies of the old edition (which is the version I've read) from other sellers for like 16 cents.

The book covers self injury, eating disorders, addictions, and other ways that we cope by harming ourselves in some way. I thought it was really good.

Rap

thanks Rap.. sounds like an interesting book.. is Trauma Reenactment Syndrome a real diagnosis?

It's more of a category that Dusty Miller proposes in her book. It makes sense to me, as I agree that maybe it doesn't matter so much which coping methods are chosen, but that we do that stuff for a reason, and we need to find a way to heal from the trauma we have experienced, and to take care of ourselves and protect ourselves, and not keep hurting ourselves over and over.

The people that the author describes in the book would probably be given various diagnoses such as eating disorders, BPD, PTSD, dissociative disorders, depression, etc. Diagnoses are just a way of describing the symptoms though, and diagnostic categories change all the time, as professionals decide these should be lumped together, and this one is really two or more different things, and here's something we hadn't picked up on before but more and more people are having those symptoms now, ... I don't know if they will ever add trauma reenactment syndrome to the DSM, but there is recognition that many diagnoses or sets of symptoms are often trauma-related. There are also therapists who specialize in treating trauma.

))))))) )))) esthersvirtue ((((((( (((((

thanks hillbunyb and Rapunzel. I'm aving such a sad week. I wrote my T a letter apologizing for being so distant. I hate when i feel like i could cry all day long.