Good memories are confusing

Does anyone find that when a memory( a good one ) comes up, it makes you feel confused as to what to think about your childhood?

Like for me I will have such a set idea that I had hard time.. then I remember something good and I feel all thrown out of whack.. in a way.

Sort of like ...Hmm there was good?

And then I (or the alters as I have DID and it seems to be a general consensus with everyone so far) sometimes feel guilty in remembering the good, sort of like .. I dont know.

I guess I didnt explain that very well.

i feel like that. I feel guilty for being in therapy when remembering good stuff or when good things happen between me and my parents. I feel like im crazy and make all the bad stuff up.

yes! that is what I was trying to put out there.

that and a feeling of like " oh. well if it was good then it couldnt be ALL THAT bad, and maybe I shouldnt be this needy for help"

Thank you ester.

something my T told me was..."When we grow up in crazy circumstances sometimes the only way we can gain a sense of control and safety is to blame ourselves for the way adults around us are acting. We rely on them so much for our survival that it would be too scary to think that they may be wrong sometimes and struggle with things themselves."

Yes after being in so much pain for so long.... when the bad memories out weigh the good ones... I often feel sad about not having more good ones.......