Cant forget about it

hi sorry if this isnt in the right place feel free to remove it ....about a month or so ago i was put into care because of issues at home one of the things that went on at home was that my parents left me for ages and wouldnt come back until weeks ...i had no idea how to get on with things by myself .I am now 13 and i cant stop thinking about everything that went on in that house ,i cry myself to sleep because i just want everything erased from my head.They used to hit me they said i didnt belong and that i was going to go to hell. it is weird not having a mum or dad ,its hard when mothers and fathers day comes along .I would do anything to make the memories end .

I am so sorry you had to go through that. Are you getting any counseling? I am 54 years old and was sexually, physically, and mentally abused as a child. I have been in therapy several times over the years. I am now entering a 12 week program for people with PTSD. Are you now in foster care? Is therapy available? There are also groups for teenagers who have been abused. I encourage you to find something like this. You may have to check out several groups to find one you are comfortable with. I wish I could hug you and love you and tell you everything will be fine. You are worthy of love and God loves ALL of his children! Your parents will pay for what they did to you one way or another. Karma has a way of showing up when you least expect it! I want you to look in the mirror every day and tell yourself "I am a beautiful child of God and he wants me to have peace and happiness in my life". I have been on a long journey as I did not have any way to deal with what happened to me for many years. Back then it was something you just did not talk about. I am so blessed to have a wonderful therapist who is helping me now! These things will never completely leave your mind, but think of it like a cassette tape that you can keep taping over the bad with the good until the bad is hardly audible. You can do it!!!

I too was abused as a child, over and over, at 13 I was put into foster care and I thought it was horrible, my first foster home was cruel and not much better than what I had come from. But, I took advantage of the situation. Eventually I was placed with a nicer family, not quite the same as having actual loving parents, but they didn't beat me or call me names. I worked hard at school, graduated High school and even went on to graduate from college. I carry a lot of baggage with me, it will probably never go away. But, be strong...you can make it through this and eventually it does get better, if you let it. I would recommend counseling, it might help to have someone to just talk to. I feel your pain and I hope you keep fighting, take control of your life and make it better than what you started with.

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Memories are hard to live with. And they don't just go away.

Poor gorgeous girl, you have survived so much and will continue to survive against all odds. Looks for opportunity to get out, whether that's a job at 16, an apprenticeship you can convince someone to give you, school, etc. Be precocious and always believe you can do better in the next step of life. The second you lose hope and give up is the habit you will learn and will be a hard mindset to break later.