trigger..my abuser......

had falsepapers saying he was a qualified hypnotist and psychologist. he performed back street abortions against the law. my mother sat in on these. he hypnotised people and abused them. he hypnotised me from when i was 8 -15 when i put a stop to it. now i cant be hypnotised barrier goes straight up. he even ran a fertilitly clinic and used his own sperm without couples permission. he was a member of the red cross and took under privileged children camping, all ages, all sexes, i had a memory flashback from when i was 9 of a 15 year old boy abusing me(touching not rape)my mum let me sleep in the tents with these teens of mixed gender from when i was 8 years old. i saw and heard things i should never have at that age.
when i was 3 she left me with the next door neighbour who was the local pervert and used to show me his privates. all this is coming back to me day by day by day. i'm sorry about all theseposts today i am numb and just getting it out. he told my mum every father wants to sleep with his daughter. he hypnotised me and made me think i was 'doin it' with my dad, clear as yesterday i remember these thoughts. i feel sick.
why haven't the police found him. why is he still out there. what if he is still abusing. why didn't i do more to stop it. because i didn't want my mum to be unhappy. she loved him
wtf
btw just in case any of you brits or irish might know him he went by the name of either mr mannering or robert poc ock(ironic)

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jinny im so sorry

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