dreams of abuser..trigger

every night now, long sleep, short sleep, nap, he's there, smirking, condescending, mum laughing, drunk, hands, fingers, laughing at me, even dreams about my dad who never abused me(my abuser was a hypnotist too) did he put these thoughts in my head? he once said to my mum every dad wants to have sex with his daughter. this surely is not true, i know it's not true, but that comment affected me and is reaccurring in dreams.my mum told me my abuser had said this, why would she tell me something like that? i would never tell my daughter anything of the sort, id never get involved with a paedophile though, that's the difference. oh i'm so confused.
jin

for jinnyann..

how tricky...your abuser was a hypnotist...thats an unequal balance of power if i ever heard one..also sounds like you have conflicting emotions about your mother..i agree she shouldnt have said those things..how are you doing now jinnyann? write us again....

well, i am waiting for a pdoc, but my feelings seem to come out in poetry or posts on here. i'm very confused and having mixed up dreams and flashbacks a lot. onmed change so i will get throught it. thanks for replying

jinnyann xoxoxoxoxo

awwwww jinn jinn.... (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs to u))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
your abuser was a b*st*rd. i will go to where ever he is now and kick his b*lls in...
i have my new rocks... tc
self

Freud suggested every male chlld fantisized about having sex with its mother and every girl the same of their father. Sigmond Freud also used and prescribed cocaine heavily. He was a wack job. Your mom come from an era of secrecy and servitude. She was probobly going with what the "smart" proffesional told her and thought she was doing the best thing for her child. Your hypnotist sucked. Also, when you sleep you DREAM when you are awake you HALLUCINATE. Not sleeping leads to hallucinations. Not sleeping messes you all up. Put cotton in your ears when your son plays guitar. Say I love you to your daughter. YOur husband is scared, frustrated and wants to help but does not know how. Get a reputable therapist if you can afford it one that places and upholds approrpriate limits. Good luck.

i can assure you i never fantasized about my father, the memories i have of that particular incident were the ones the abuser put in my head and its all coming back to me. it was my abuser but he made me think it was my father. freud sucked as far as i'm concerned. ooops freudian slip of the tongue.

jin