[BlueEyez87]

I have to say that I love this website because it allows me to know I am not alone in surviving my abuse. Does anyone else get triggered from reading and trying to help others on this site? I ask because trying to help people makes me relive me abuse over and over again and I can't get it out of my head. I mean I normally think about it almost everyday as something makes my mind go back to that time and place. I think I need help and my significant other can't help me as he doesn't understand, I can't talk to my family so I just live with the demons in my head. I sometimes post on this website to at least get things out but even then I can't completely come clean. My hunny says it's because I haven't faced my mom and her ex about everything, but I already relive it enough and I don't want to have to do it again. What should I do therapy is expensive and I'm against medicine although I probably should take it. Please advise thank you.

[TerriLynn]

I don't think that confronting the abuser necessarily makes things better. If those people abused you then, they sure aren't going to fess up to it and make you feel better now.
This is something you are going to have to receive therapy for. It is not cheap if you don't have the insurance coverage, but there may be some low cost clinics in your area too. Try doing a google search or contact a local therapist and ask them for suggestions.

I noticed you responded to one of my posts and I am sorry if that triggered you. I try to put the "Trigger" symbol next to the title if I think that might happen. Look for those and maybe pass them up if you think it might be an issue for you.

[BlueEyez87]

It did I didn't even think about it and yes I do have insurance however it is still expensive. I will definitely look around and see what I can find because I'm tired of fighting the fight alone. The abuser didn't even fess up when confronted just tried to kill himself and had my mother call me a liar and kick me out. I still have a lot of anger. I will definitely pay more attention to the trigger symbols in the future. I just try to tell myself that it won't bother me.

[Georgia Bridge]

Hello, BlueEyez87,
I really don't know how to help; I would like to.
While I was writing this I saw your next post.
I now am at a complete lack of words.
I'm glad you are going to look around for help.

I get real triggered by some posts and threads, and instantly lose it. With me though it's if I ask for help or if I tried to help someone else and they got triggered.
I wish you well in your search. Meg.

[starfruit504]

TerriLynn is right -- confrontation doesn't automatically lead to healing. Unloading on them isn't going to remove the trauma in your own mind. All those feelings and memories will still be there. There's also a very real reason to believe they won't take responsibility. Abusers are usually people who embrace responsibility.

There are low cost options for treatment, lots of therapists have sliding scales so they can accommodate patients who can't pay some blanket hourly fee. I think the search feature at Psychology Today lets you select therapists with sliding scales. If you call one who specializes in trauma, ask them about payment and tell them your financial concerns. If you have insurance, try contacting your provider and asking them about options, they should be able to supply you with therapists in your area who take your insurance.

I still get triggered sometimes, but it's so much better than it was before I started therapy. At first I reached out here for comfort and then wanted to help, but sometimes it's just too early to start helping each other, we're just not healed enough yet.