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thanks for replying.
you mis-ed it.it is again and again.hell overcame it one time.but i prove myself through what.....yeah some place,think think,i need to join a group,to feel the some time.(much disturbance,i forgot what i was trying to say.) there are specific questions on the final pages. |
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so afraid of being alone,feel like expose to cross fire.
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excuse me,my brain is ruined,i am stuck in sht in my here,i see,hear,even have to answer sht.i am becoming sht.better have fed with useful,thought through,solution based replies.....for one,i am losing my english,cos no one in my here knows english,even in websites,they don't know and they correct you giggling.how shameless.freak out.and the beehbeeh on the computer knocked my words away....
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holyholy.
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#55
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i want to go out,but not in the street.baby,answer it, dam
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</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
cusack10 said: excuse me,my brain is ruined </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Not completely. You are typing on the computer. You communicate with us. You really do.
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Now if thou would'st When all have given him o'er From death to life Thou might'st him yet recover -- Michael Drayton 1562 - 1631 |
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_Sky said: Cusack, remind me, you live in a country where there is not much professional help, is that right? It's been a long time since we have chatted I think. I'm glad you are gaining strength to take care of yourself some, that is important. I hope you will work on breathing and do what we call "clearing our mind" of clutter. Try and focus on one thing at a time... just one thing at a time... then when that's done, then you can do another thing. Can you make lists for yourself? Do you have things you need to do to take care of yourself? Those things would make a good list. One thing at a time, does that work for you? I'm going to need to sleep soon cusack, but I'll look for your posting tomorrow again, ok? </div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> that was good good gooooooood,don't freaking stop!!! |
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![]() I hope you can focus on what _Sky posted to you and maybe try out some of her ideas. They are really good ones! Wishing you well! Hugsss sabby |
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Hi cusack. It is difficult to work on reframing those negative thoughts, isn't it?! But keep working on it. You are not excrement, no one is. You have worth. You are dealing with more than some others have to, but you ARE dealing with it, aren't you! Keep on.
![]() I'll be back home midnight... not sure how soon I will be back on regularly. I still have to contend with my house issue, and I have NO CLUE what state that is in. (other than Florida ![]() Sky
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i try quoted from a previous post, cusack.
![]() the last incident that put me to vent here.spades game.the p is from russia,others russian and spainish,he was doing well in the beginning,and he talked a lot,and the third game,he said sry for cutting me,i trumped on that hand.he said sry,i backed with a down look.but he said back the same look,puzzle.and he cut me again,oh,it is on purpose.and the next game,it is only 9 bid in total,he kept trump in spite that i gave all my big card after him,and it ended up with 8 bags.i was hoping he can say a word but he didn't .i was set.what is more shting,a while later,i tried to fight back a bit and having learnt from sht,i bid 13,the opponent russian teased me with well done,game is great,and thank you,and gone.holy,he didn't say well done to tease my p when he was gaining all bags on last round.it was freaking obvious he did on purpose.the world is filled with sht.gosh,i have nowhere to turn to.sigh. [i]<font color="blue"> But you do have someplace to turn: PC! Maybe others who read here can give you links to sites that are not so mean? But you can't take card playing personally...it is a game, and you play well and others lose too... you play the game too. The better you play a game, the less the others know what you are doing, they can't know what you will do or you lose. That's how card games go, yes? Gotta let the bad stuff go. Part of life. Tough part of life sometimes. I like games that help me learn. I also like games that I try to better myself, like in timed games. Make me think quicker. ![]()
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i am sick,because she is so sick.i know the "you can't change another person" theory,but do i have to change me completely.holy,you should put that nagging-for-years say on the textbook.you know what,"what's a man's first duty?the answer's brief:to be himself",says ibsen.
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ten thousand members.silences.
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#63
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time after time feeding you,backup needed,,./...
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God damn Sky
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#65
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no matter how i do well,still to be ruined by my mom."something got to give".
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i am going nuts.
k,put it clearest,it is like black and white,anyone who is not blind and deaf ....can see it,ENTER the house. you don't know,and you don't provide other website links,ect. when i am very little,i know children are weakest group of ppl, which is problem of problems,20 yrs passed,still the loneliest |
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sunny day,thinking of she'd walk into front door,just freak me out.she's in,she seeks a fight.that's what she does for a entertaining living.there is really nothing more i can give.quote "really not my fault,the other side's down.dragging".damn.as i said millions of times,i can't think while i am meant to think,cos she ruins any thinking of mine.
NO PEACE FOR THINKING.chest pain,blood stream jam,suffocate. |
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full of TRIGGERs
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sabau,could you move this post to survivor section?
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she knows nothing,but she knew everything.then i can do nothing,because she knew everything and nothing.
that was a good one.and a dumb one.dan dumb good...words game,you like it. when she speaks,she speaks in speakers in highit is also nonstop..you never put a word in it, when she allow you speak,you just started,she speak again.and never speak of a single word you just say.and she uses her power ,she yell up the apartment building. |
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what are ppl doing.how they think.what do they want.what is attitude in a meeting.
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#72
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i saw others' posts.solution is luck.
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#73
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pointers HERE?
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Subject: would you keep on
Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 07/27/07 04:16 am) hi,i am seeking solutions,that is all,dizzling a bit,scared all away,i can hold on to the truth,by which i have walked till today,will you keep on with me with the truth.i can explain anything in the air of equal talk. it is all about room,all about enforcement,come on keep up,just a short distance we are there. Subject: sky Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 07/28/07 11:21 pm) no reply,i hate.i will fight on,til the end,because i want to rest in peace.i find a little peace and die,then i know i rest in peace.i lost my english. Subject: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 07/29/07 08:34 am) sky,i hate no responds,i don't know why people keep ignoring me,today,i seek help from local and recieve pointers,do that,don't do this,meaningless pointers.please,make up a crap reason to dump me,don't be quiet. Subject: Re: hey From: _Sky (Sent on: 07/30/07 12:30 am) I'm so sorry I left you in the lurch! I posted in General that I had a problem with my home, and that was a day before I was to go on a long trip... and I've been so busy trying to do both! I am behind, and can't read forums tonight, but will get to them by Wednesday I think. Hang in there! I still care. Sky Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/01/07 11:50 pm) wen Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/03/07 12:09 am) you made bad on your promise Subject: Re: hey From: _Sky (Sent on: 08/05/07 10:13 am) Yes, I was unable to continue to post to you and I am very regretful. I smashed my leg between my wheelchair and a metal bed frame and haven't been to anyone to have it xrayed yet ... if it's fractured, it is a closed one.. the added pain and fatigue made me have to go to bed very early each night. Morning began at 5am at camp. (I've been in NM.) I'm not home yet, writing to you from Colorado on my way home. Has anything calmed for you yet? Have other members been posting to you? I haven't been on the forums at all, and won't be out there really until another day or two at least. Sky Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/07/07 01:00 pm) sky,you are the only one that answers my post,you give it a thought.sabau has no words,and rap doesn't follow. i believe that there are about 3 directive and brief questions on the final pages,one is just before you first replied.answer any of them would be great helpful and appriciated. best wishes. Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/08/07 02:44 am) ty for the game advice,which is helpful.but that is not the questions that i mentioned.should i list them for you?and as the thread is cold,we should talk in pm.i am not instant talker for now,so here is what i have prepared to say. she just don't figure a way to kill me physicallly,she said so for many times,she is seeking a killing each other.she is one line think.first,she is never content with her personal life,and she adopted the thought of talking from high as elders.that results in pouring down her anger toward me and never a chance for me to talk or be heard. she is extremly insane,any one or thing can tell.any third party interference is half of ending of this insanity,and if there involved a person can talk equally,it is done. Subject: Re: hey From: _Sky (Sent on: 08/09/07 01:06 pm) (((cusack))) That is scary indeed, to think your own mother is going to kill you and then herself. Is there ANY agency, hospital, doctor or anyone that helps people like her? Do you have ANY other family? I know no one believes you, but that you believe this is enough for me. Of course I can't do anything from here, since you are in another country. I think you said there is not mental health help there? Remind me? A lot of questions, sorry. It is ok that you prepare your PMs ahead of time and then send to me. I have to take time to think of what to say, too. I try to get my words across to you without using big English words you might not know. Some time when you feel like it, tell me more about you. How old are you? Do you have any doctor to give you medicine for help? What do you do all day? What do you want to do? What does your home (house) look like? Your town (city)..is it big or small? I live in a big area with many large cities around... Miami FL is one of them. But I live in a small community (town) and not everyone can come here, there is a locked gate to keep people who do not live here out. I go to a city south of Miami, which is a long way of an hour drive, to see my doctors. I go to physical therapy 3 times a week due to an injury that keeps me in pain all the time. I do not work any more TTYS (talk to you soon) Sky Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/09/07 06:34 pm) -really,i need to lead someone into the house and he will see what happen,even a stupid one.a pig.i am asking HOW. -still i need to secure home area,right -some place,think think,i need to join a group,to feel the some time the questions that i mentioned. i want to answer your questions,but as i said,i am stuck,flat out.i have answers at a time,but there are too much disturbance which always knock me out of memory. oh,i have one back.yes,the mental health service is not professional.so are other services,most of time,they deal with VISIBLE life and death situation.the doctors set in hospitals greed the large amount of money for hospitalization,and very few counsellors in companies who also greed the big money for a counselling session sounds good at first,but speaking of parents and others with social power and souce over the victim,they are not counselling anymore.then i need friends support. WAITING Subject: Re: hey From: _Sky (Sent on: 08/09/07 10:50 pm) Ok. What about neighbors? Do any of them realize the situation? What about your mom's "friends" and people she is around, do they see how she is? You don't have to answer questions, just that if you can, I can think of more things to help maybe. Ok...what kind of groups are in your area? Are they listed in a phone book or is there a phone number you can call to find them? Or even find them online with computer maybe. tc Sky Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/10/07 06:49 am) i been just knocked out. first,i have to express my fear on the web,which is being abandoned without a reason. ..... i live in an apartment,well decorated in appearnce,but she leave me little money for food,so i live in a good house,but always hungry. ... i can't do one thing at a time,i don't have time,she freak me out every time,never approve any thing of me,if i do a thing,i must do it really in secret.i put a thing there or fix a thing for convenience,she see it and clear it off,causing big inconveniece,even danger. ... i am always forgetting what i am going to say. ... that is it,i can't do a thing at a time,even it is clearest a good way and the only way for that matter,she sees it and ruins it.i try to keep my life the simplist,do very few things in a day,but the food is not there,the gas oven is automatically out of fire,the shower pipe is leaking,there are too much things to take care of,and i can't take care of,cos,i am not allowed to,and i can't report them,cos she doesn't believe me,yeah,the oven thing is now and then,i put a container under the leaking point,she saw it and took it away,yeah,i put it there for no reason.so basically,i can't do nothing till i have my ground for defence.too many things,god damn absurd.never ever she respects my one word.(addition:i told her this,she yells the hell and *****es.) i am always forgetting what i am going to say. i had just tried to fix my meal,and changed a thing or placed a thing in the kitchen,and i knew she would ruin it when she is back,then i got freaked out.then here is the vent. vent. Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/10/07 07:06 am) i'm sorry if last post causes you any disturbing feeling.reminder,i had been freaked out....i was only trying to say as much as i can in spite of my freak out in order not to let you abandon me. should i be doing it again in this post? ooo it was only a vent ooo i get it back on you last post ooo i never harm anyone Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/10/07 07:09 am) i'll get it back to your last post* Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/10/07 09:30 am) there is really nothing i can give."something got to give". Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/10/07 10:30 am) i hate the people.cos i am messed up home,when i go out or don't go out,avoiding,they see i am messed up,they keep on messing me up for their cheap fun. i'm sorry,it is just suffocation,i have to guard too much things while i want to develop.oppressed.i am no harm.please help. Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/10/07 11:24 am) while i am trend to develop* Subject: Re: hey From: _Sky (Sent on: 08/11/07 12:49 pm) Cusack I think you are doing good at sharing what your life is like. I'm sorry it's so hard for you. I'm sorry you also suffer mentally with things. Is some of what you have like anxiety? Or do you think you sometimes feel like schizophrenic? I think you share well, so I don't know how you are other times. I wonder why your mom won't let you change any thing. Maybe she thinks you clutter stuff up and she won't let you do even one thing so it doesn't get "out of hand" and too much to clean? Why can't you go out and find help? What keeps you inside and afraid, do you know? TC until I can chat with you again. (((hugs))) My leg is going to be ok, not broken. My roof on house though broke. Guys on roof fixing it now. Sky Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/11/07 04:33 pm) as i said,she knows everything.she won't publilize that,but that is what she does.she is sick dominating.she only cares about herself,there is only herself role in her.so she is like a passing by person in the street,if there is a dispute,she would bully the weak and flatter the strong.before the strong,there is a chance for her for reasoning. i really don't know why you again questioned of me. Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/11/07 06:20 pm) the people keep down-est to themself.she has set her power status.mom yells a lot,which also means she uses her power a lot in a talk.so the people around may sympathize me,but they are not in it.it is power race.why do they want to be in a fight. a platform that ppl can see my potential and we have common interests and become friends.i sure can do things carefully. i ask for ideas. Subject: Re: hey Sent to: _Sky (Sent on: 08/11/07 09:42 pm) countless times,as i said,she never respect my one word.every word of hers with me is bullying,abusing,insulting.if you keep asking why,then go back to my post and pms.keep asking why,go back there. or you know others psych help links and contact info. Subject: Re: hey From: _Sky (Sent on: Yesterday (08/12/07) at 12:50 pm) Thanks for letting me know I've asked some of this before. I apologize that I have. I really do have a problem with remembering at times...which is another reason I can't work. Please don't take it personally, it's my problem not yours. What is your native language Cusack? The people you speak with and ask ideas from, IRL, do they help at all? How are you doing today? You know, if it is an unchangeable situation, that can be very depressing. You have to have hope for something. How old is your mom? TTYL Sky |
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JUST ONLY IN THE LACK OOOOOOOOFFFFFFFFF WWWWWWWE
YOU DON'T GET. YOU CAN'T SEE NOTHING BUT TRUTH. GIVE TRUTH A BED |
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