Difficulty doing anything on my own

I'm not in a relationship and only have a few friends. Whenever I try to do something, even just everyday things like cooking, exercising.. I'm hit with paralyzing shame - because I'm doing those things ALONE. I feel (or fear) it's because I'm not good enough for anyone.

I know these moments when I'm alone throw me back to my childhood when my dad didn't want anything to do with me - I thought it was my fault and felt ashamed.. I've started to realise little by little that this wasn't the case - that man was sick and twisted. It's still just a feebel belief I have in this, so I thought I'd share my worry here now to make it ever more real - that it isn't 'my fault'. These days, I choose to be by myself a lot of the time because I LIKE it that way.

Independent people are STRONG people. Good for you for realizing that these feelings are not representative of how others perceive you, but how you have been taught to perceive yourself. That alone takes strength! Your ability to see the cause of and seek solutions to this shows that you are absolutely strong, and more than good enough, as many people would not have the personal insight, or strength to get to where you are.

Thank you so much for your support and encouragement, coast123! It means so much to me.