[greentires4me]

so I was sexually assualted on April 7th, 2017 and did do a forensic exam.

Well yesterday I got the news the police investigation was closed and that there would be no charges laid in this crime. The police said that my testimony wasn't viable, meaning it was not strong enough to stand up in trial. The police asked why my verison was different from before statement and apparently he said I said it was from "flashbacks"...Which my "flashbacks" have never once never not been the truth which is sad and pathetic to say the least. And this monster in poems and in my nightmares/terrors, never ceases, even when I tell him "no" or "enough"!

ITs horrible I feel like a piece of garbage I set up an intake for counselling @ a local place for domestic abuse/violence against woman center in town, for next week. I am in a safe house right now I feel like crap-o-la.....

I got sexually assaulted in 2013 and there was a police investigation and basically i was told there was nothing they could do it was my word against his. Which was completely a different guy, but history keeps repeating itself it feels like.

Before I was sexually assualted in 2003 and the guy put a drug in my drink. I consented to a massage not sex. I did do a rape kit but police were not involved because the mental health therapist said that my story would never hold up in court. "Because we both drinking at the time..."

I am sober for more then 21months and 21 days, but all I feel like doing is blowing my money my grocery, and going out getting loaded.

This is a big blow to myself as a core....please someone help me...or say something to take away all this hurt, and disbelief!

[Thestral578]

I wish there was something that would take away your pain. The only thing I can think of that might help is to remind you that you aren't alone (I say "remind" because I'm sure you already know that). It doesn't necessarily make it easier, but know that there are other people who can have some idea of what you're experiencing. My situation is very different from yours and I can't imagine feeling what you are feeling. I hope you can find some support here.
Congratulations on your sobriety. You must be a strong person to be able to stay sober each and every day.

[Monarch Butterfly]

I'm sorry this happened to you It's not your fault. I'm saddened to hear the police have treated you in the manner you described. I wonder if there is a victim advocate where you live? Maybe they have some power to help advocate for you

[lal81]

Originally Posted by greentires4me

so I was sexually assualted on April 7th, 2017 and did do a forensic exam.

Well yesterday I got the news the police investigation was closed and that there would be no charges laid in this crime. The police said that my testimony wasn't viable, meaning it was not strong enough to stand up in trial. The police asked why my verison was different from before statement and apparently he said I said it was from "flashbacks"...Which my "flashbacks" have never once never not been the truth which is sad and pathetic to say the least. And this monster in poems and in my nightmares/terrors, never ceases, even when I tell him "no" or "enough"!

ITs horrible I feel like a piece of garbage I set up an intake for counselling @ a local place for domestic abuse/violence against woman center in town, for next week. I am in a safe house right now I feel like crap-o-la.....

I got sexually assaulted in 2013 and there was a police investigation and basically i was told there was nothing they could do it was my word against his. Which was completely a different guy, but history keeps repeating itself it feels like.

Before I was sexually assualted in 2003 and the guy put a drug in my drink. I consented to a massage not sex. I did do a rape kit but police were not involved because the mental health therapist said that my story would never hold up in court. "Because we both drinking at the time..."

I am sober for more then 21months and 21 days, but all I feel like doing is blowing my money my grocery, and going out getting loaded.

This is a big blow to myself as a core....please someone help me...or say something to take away all this hurt, and disbelief!

The system is completely corrupt! I have had the same thing happen to me.

No matter what don't blame yourself. None of this is your fault.

This is so bad… There is no reason why you would be making any of this up?! It is totally rigged and I'm so sorry. Do you have anyone in your life who you can talk to this about?

Many hugs and prayers going out to you…

[starryprince]

This is absolutely disgusting and disturbing and ridiculous. You deserve all of the help you can get. I'm sorry the system is failing you. I cannot believe the therapist said the story wouldn't hold up in court because you were drinking too. So if someone is drinking they deserve to get sexually assaulted? Their feelings and their rights as human beings are suddenly invalid because of the alcohol in their system? This is so sad. You have my complete and utter sympathy.

[greentires4me]

UPDATE: I went for intake for Counselling at the local woman's support services and such. Its going to be a 3 months wait.

Gawd how am I going to be able wait until then?

So much for being in a "civilized" society who chooses to rely on a flawed legal system over tried and true "street" justice when dealing with subhuman filth like that.

Rapists deserve to have their testicles chopped off because a male who treats a woman like that isn't a man and doesn't deserve them.

Or perhaps, they should be strung up and used as live punching bags for their victims to cope? These solutions are much more effective than relying on any type of government legal system, not to mention, the punishments are much more fitting.

Anyways enough of my ranting. I wish I had some practical advice for you but I don't since I'm not familiar with how mental health services work in Canada. I just wish the best for you and hope you get help soon.

[Used2Bmommie]

I was 12 when I was raped by my 17 year old boyfriend. I came home and my moms boyfriend who was already abusing me. I told my mom and she did nothing. Completely ignored the part about her boyfriend but reported mine. The cops dragged me through the mud and I became the town slut. The guy got like 2 years. My moms boyfriend abused me for almost 2 years. I didn't testify but my mom did. For the defense. He got 5 years but paroled after 3. No one warned me. They promised me he would be locked up until I was 18 and he couldn't hurt me anymore. They lie. My11 year old sister was gang raped and the cops did NOTHING they said she must have been willing because she was "drunk" they said she wouldn't need a rape Kit because she wasn't raped. I feel your pain. This is why so many rapes go unreported and so many rapists walk the streets