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I had a dream last week, that I caught my dad molesting my little cousin in my house. I was so scared. Even more disturbing I saw them and he saw me and came out to try to explain, and I ran off. When I woke up I realized that I ran away and hide in different neighborhoods, but I didnt go back to get my cousin. I'm not sure why I dreamed this. I'm the only one my dad has 'had a problem' with. The dream has been really bothering me though.

[Perna]

I dreamed last night that my husband was yelling at me. He never yells/gets angry in that fashion, I've never been afraid of him. During the dream I was really upset that he was yelling at me, it was like I had made some kind of mistake and caused it. When I woke I had to work to realize it was a dream and he hadn't yelled at me and I didn't deserve to be yelled at, hadn't done anything wrong, wasn't contemplating :-) doing anything wrong in the real near future.

I think your dream is really interesting Esther, what I find most interesting is that you ran off and wouldn't listen to his explanation! There is no explanation for molestation! He could not possibly explain and you knew that (even as a kid) and ran off right then so as not to listen to his male bovine's waste product. I think your father "had trouble" with you when you were a child because you could see through him and he didn't like that. But I think maybe you haven't been giving yourself enough credit for how "smart" you were as a kid/are now.

I think your cousin represented you at the time and so there were two you's, the dreamer you "watching" and not putting up with your father's "explanation", wisely running off to keep yourself safe, and the "cousin" you who was just a stand-in. There was nothing you could do as a child against your "stronger" father, no way you could rescue the "cousin" other than how you did deal with it. I think it's a great dream, showing how well you are doing/"growing up" now.

[recluse1]

((((((((gentle hugs)))))))) i am sure this dream disturbed you in a very personal way. i am sorry it was so upsetting to you then and still seems to be now.

if it would make you feel better, just talk to your little cousin so you know they are safe.

wishing you sweeter dreams
recluse1

[youOme]

dreams have underlying meanings and I'm sure is contributed my your fears, although makes sense. it would be concerning waking up after seeing that through your thoughts. just remember it's in your head and if you ever get the chance to alter you dreams through half conscious sleep/wake....alter it to a better beginning and ending, and hopefully that will make it go away.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( esthersvirtue ))))))))))))))

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Perna said:
I think your cousin represented you at the time and so there were two you's, the dreamer you "watching" and not putting up with your father's "explanation", wisely running off to keep yourself safe, and the "cousin" you who was just a stand-in.

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maybe so. Its wierd that I'm not really sure it was my cousin. It was a little girl who looked like her when she was that age (but my cousin in 20 now)

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recluse1 said:
((((((((gentle hugs)))))))) i am sure this dream disturbed you in a very personal way. i am sorry it was so upsetting to you then and still seems to be now.

if it would make you feel better, just talk to your little cousin so you know they are safe.

wishing you sweeter dreams
recluse1

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thanks recluse. I've just been a mess. ... I've never been truely unable to function like this. :-( My cousin in an adult now. I think maybe the dream was more symbolic b/c i think i was the only one my dadwas involved with.

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youOme said:
. just remember it's in your head and if you ever get the chance to alter you dreams through half conscious sleep/wake....alter it to a better beginning and ending, and hopefully that will make it go away.

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yeah.. I'm not sure how to exactly do that, but I need too. Thank u for the support.

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Fuzzybear said:
(((((((((((((( esthersvirtue ))))))))))))))

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hugs to you too, fuzzy. thank you.

sorry you are struggling.

maybe your dream is a sign that you feel guilty about something? Guilt can be such a heavy burden.
have you ever not defended someone when you felt you should have?
just an idea.........

hope you can talk to your T. about this and come to a peaceful understanding.

thinking of you

mandy

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maybe your dream is a sign that you feel guilty about something? Guilt can be such a heavy burden.
have you ever not defended someone when you felt you should have?

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I don't think so. I don't know. I wouldnt ever let him do that to anyone knowingly.