scaring myself

Since I have been having nightmares about my incidents, I have become very paraniod. And now everytime I go anywhere where there are people...I can hear him. It's like he is talking to me. But he is dead. And I am really freaking myself out. I have no more release, so I have gone back to hurting myself. It's like he is haunting me...not really emotionally but almost physically. I know this all sounds crazy. But the dreams haven't gone away yet and now this...i think im truely crazy now. And not knowing is killing me.

damajdancer,

It really sounds like you are struggling with PTSD symptoms. I have been there. Please know that you are worth better than hurting yourself to deal with the stress and fear. Try to stay connected to what is real. When I was where you are now, I would write down what I was experiencing and draw pictures of it, so I could run my hands over them to really see it was not real today, just an echo from the past.

you are not alone. be well,

mtd

I understand exactly what your talking about. You are not crazy and you are not alone. You will have nightmares, you will have flashbacks. Look into PTSD symptoms. I also have hallucinations.

Are you in therapy? If your not you may want to get a therapist. You need to process this with a professional. The more you process it, the easier it gets. Although, there is no cure for PTSD.

PM me anytime.