[Dingoroo]

such a stigma behind clergy and religious abuse, that somehow the religion justifies it, the pressure for that abuse to be silenced, no one to talk to about it, and I make everyone close to me who knows pretend it never happened. flood gate opened on my tears and my memories, and I need my boyfriend to hold me tight but he's in hospital and I don't even know if he'll make it, I'm sucha sook. people don't understand and I sit here crying, hoping that he'll make it and wishing the memories would go away.

[pegasus]

((((((((((((( Dingoroo ))))))))))))) You are going through such a difficult time, I am so sorry. PM me if you need.

[RozG]

((((((((Dingaroo)))))))

i personally know what you're talking about ok?

please pm me if you need.

[Dingoroo]

just needing him right now, I belittle it so much, but I can't belittle it any longer and it's all coming back, all flooding back how can I be strong when I don't even know if he's gonna make it, when the kids are crying, my friends are staring at me, there's reminders everywhere and they don't understand, no where to turn. couldn't the flashbacks wait for a day when I had him to hold me? hate being sucha sook but I can't old it together tonight when I feel so silenced irl and alone.

[Angel_of_the_Past]

Hugs and prayers-Angel

[Justgiving]

(((((((((Dingoroo)))))))))

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((Dingoroo)))))

I hear you from deep within my soul. I understand with every breath you and I take. The secrets get so loud at times they hurt and they radiate within and seem to radiate without making it aqs though others can see exactly what you see. But they cannot. Believe me, they cannot.

You are stronger than you think because you were able to come here and post. I am proud of you for that. That is a big step. Everything will work out. Just take one moment one second at a time if you have to. Breath in slowly--breath out slowly--breath in slowly--breath out slowly--you are not alone. Someone else knows now.

I have been where you are right now. I have stood right where you are standing. I know it is hard to feel like you are not responsible--but you are NOT. You are just in need of someone to understand--someone to hold out there hand for you to hold on to. I am throwing out a rope for you to grab onto-------------------------------------------------------please hang on. I will be here for you whenever you need to talk. Just PM me.

I have had to ask so many times to be heard--to be held--and it is ok. You are no sook--you are someone who is hurting and needs to be heard and held. There is nothing wrong with that. Have faith that your boyfriend will be okay.

The right behind being a clergy or religious belief--is NOT a right to hurt ANYONE AT ANYTIME. The secrets they put on you to hold are very harmful and should be told. They have no right to do what they do in the name of God. God would NOT do that. He is a loving God not someone that would hurt you.

NOTHING justifies religious abuse. NOTHING. I admire you for being able to write what you have written. Maybe someday, I will be able to let go of some of what I went through.

Thank you for taking the risk to share and know you are not alone. Take care of you and get help if you need to. You were the victim that was once silenced but you are a survivor. Know you are not alone anymore. You are cared about and are supported here.

darkpurplesecrets

[50guy]

As a former clergyman I advise you to expose this abusive pervert masquerading as a member of the Ministry.

I wish I could be there for you when you confront this person.

Be brave,

<font color="purple">To say "I understand" would be a lie, but I can empathise.

I can't give you my advise, and I don't really know how I can be supportive, but I can give you my love...so I hope that it will suffice.

((((((((((Dingoroo + Boyfriend + Kids))))))))))


I hope he makes it too... </font>

[Blue93]

I know you 2 have a lot going on atm
cant really give advice i guess
just wanting to say I care and am thinking of you all
take care
things suck right now (huge understatement..) but sometime someday there will be good days again
things do get better just seems like they dont sometimes..

Blue

[katheryn]

again same as everybody else the problems you have going on is so hard

please seek somebody you can talk to to get support for you so you can help b/f when hes home again

my thoughts are with you both at this time

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Dingoroo ))))))))))))))))