I Can't Go On

I've been living with it for the last 9 years or so...and every day gets harder and harder to cope with, i can't do a thing about it because my future is more important than whats going on now, i need to make sure i have a stable place to go when im out of home...

do you think that i'm doing the wrong thing??

helpless
x

((((((((Jai-Jai)))))))))

You do need to look after your future, but take care of yourself now please.

Can u post some more. I guess I dont understand what your asking...I want to so please clarify for me....:Wave-Hello:

basically i've been phsyically abused for the past 9 years, and i've been told by so many people to do something about it, but i have to look at where i wanna be in the future and i have ballet lessons that i really want to continue and if i were to move out or stop it happening, the ballet lessons would stop, and i can't afford them on my own if i were to move away from home.

i don't know really know if i'm doing the right thing or not by staying at home.

hope that helps x

i am having a hard time understanding what exactly you are trying to say... but, if i understand correctly... what your saying is that living with the abuse, is going to make life more stable when you leave... so you are choosing to live with the abuse???
i use to think that... if i stayed and just took it a little longer... things would change... or... i would be in a better place to make that break in a few weeks...months...years... the problem was that better time didn't come... and when i did leave i had more scars on my soul... you know what i mean? ... please take care and if your in an abusive situation get help... call a shelter... talk to someone you trust... take care of yourself...lyn

Look into other ballet classes, or classes that you would be able to do on later on, when you would be able to afford them.

You can't stay in an unsafe home.

I agree. Living with the abuse when you're in a position where you can leave is neither healthy nor fair to you. I'm sure that you can find other, more affordable, ballet lessons. What's most is important is for you to be safe.

xylia

the damage to you mental health is not worth the cost of ballet class. Talk to you ballet teacher about scholarships or payment plans. Its not worth the risk to you future, you will be paying for therapy for a long time...

Dear jai-jai,

Nothing, is more important than stopping the physical abuse you are suffering. Please, don't be driven by the consequence, of having your ballet lessons interrupted. Do what you need to do, i.e., get out, then deal with your new future.

When I was your age, I considered running away from home, account of the physical and emotional abuse; I was suffering. I didn't. I thought, if I did, I would never finish high school, and therefore, not be able to attend college. I had great dreams, regarding my future, in the sciences, and engineering. Probably, not unlike your dreams, regarding ballet.

Well, I stayed. I stuck it out, another two years. I finished high school, and went off to college, where I totally failed. I was too dysfunctional to be a good student. I did finally finish, i.e., I graduated when I was 28.

I am not suggesting, you run away from home. It is really not a good idea. The world is full of individuals, who would exploit your vulnerability. You need to seek, and acquire, the aid of a trustworthy adult. It could be a school counselor, a teacher, a coach or possibly your ballet instructor. I am confident, you will be able to find someone, who will help you make the move, you so desperately need to make.

While writing this message, I realized, what I could have done. I had grandparents in Germany. I could have made my way there, although it would have been difficult.

I know, once you are safe, free of the abuse, you will be able to think with greater clarity. You will be able to forge your own future.

Please, take care of yourself,

Larry

hi - thank you so much for the kind words of advice, i don't currently need the exams for my future, but i want to keep them up and my dance teacher doesn't work on a scholarship program...and i want to go to uni and fufilll my dream as a fashion photographer, but i can't do that if i run away or get help for the abuse...i'll have no way to staying at uni, and my parents will not let me go...i tried, believe me i have, but nothing works, and i'm not locked in until they know where i'm going and what time and so on...

sad i know, i know i'm not helping myself, i just don't know how to move my routine and change the regular, i find it hard, i've jsut started 6th form college, and i'm finding it so hard making friends, no one wants to know...

thank you so much, its put me to ease.