I filed a police report

For what happened to me. For what that guy did to me.

It made me feel... well, indifferent. I was trying to convince myself to not go to the police station the entire way... but my friends came along (two of them) to help me out emotionally, which is really nice.

Police officer wasn't very nice. Very indifferent and cold. Too professional. But I guess you get that way over time...?

Paperwork was ok. Tried to not space out while writing.

His questions afterwards kinda bugged me, but at least they were multiple choice (about the physical description).

They're likely (hopefully) never going to contact me. I told them that doing a sketch or identifying the person would be hard.

So yeah. I totally dissociated afterwards. Did I say how glad I am that my friend was there to help me out? No freaking out though, no crying... just emotional numbness.

Now... I'm just tired. My T told me I could call her if I needed to... I might. Not tonight though.

i think you did good, its very hard to make a decision like that and then go and do it,
((((((((((((((((christina)))))))))))))))

Congratulations - even if you don't feel it, you were very brave!

My T is always talking about taking my power back. This was a way of taking your power back, and that is a GOOD THING.

They called me back.

I had to talk about it again.

At least this guy didn't ask me for details about the assault, just details about the person/vehicle. Still not doing so good.

Really shakey.

One of my friends found out today about the incident, and he talked to me. It made me feel sad, but happy to be somewhat understood... he was abused as a kid too.

My counsellor says this takes time. And that she wants me to hold onto her hope that this gets easier for me. Or her knowledge that it WILL get better, just that it takes a lot of time.

Sigh.

(((Christina)))

Good for you! I know how hard it is to do this.

It may be difficult to feel this now, but taking this step will help bring you peace. It gives the responsibility over to the people who's job it is. It is knowing that you stood up for yourself and gave yourself a voice.

It will get easier with time. Try to hold onto that hope. If not, I'll hold onto it for you.

Right now, be kind and gentle to yourself. You've done an admirable thing, and you deserve some goodness.

(((christina)))

i think you're really brave.
dang them police officers, they're always too professional.

btw: the human mind is the perfect candidate for dissociation.

take gentle care of yourself.

twilight

Darling ((((((((((Christina))))))))))

So sorry you had to go through this
but you have done really well.
Also sorry we didn't see the original post until now.

Remember that dissociation is a normal coping mechanism for humans, so don't worry about that part of it

Take gentle care of yourself, & it is NEVER your fault if you are assaulted.
It took us a long time to learn to believe that about ourself. It's strange , isn't it ? If this happened to someone else, you wouldn't dream of blaming them, but when it happens to you it feels different & unfortunately the police can be very insensitive sometimes. Glad that you had friends to help.

Christina...
I didn't know of this incident, so I went back and found your posts about it. I'm so sorry this happened to you! I have had similar experiences in dealing with the police because of a stalker. They weren't much help till it escalated to his breaking into my house with a gun. I hope your assailant will be caught and punished before he bothers other women.
Good for you for filing the police report, and in no way are you responsible.
Love
Patty

Sorry I am so late chiming in on this one . Something similar happened to me many years ago -- PM if you want to talk. In the meantime, you did the right thing filing the report.