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Old Dec 09, 2008, 02:09 PM
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She's not there

I can't help but keep remembering memories from my childhood. They were repressed...but they keep surfacing. I don't want to remember anymore.

I wish my cousins never touched me...ever...I can't stand being touched anymore...even though we were little it still hurt and made me uncomfortable...just don't like it. It upsets my littles

How did I get trapped into this family? This family built on abuse after abuse...just not necessary...a family shouldn't have this..
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Old Dec 09, 2008, 04:36 PM
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She's not there

I can't help but keep remembering memories from my childhood. They were repressed...but they keep surfacing. I don't want to remember anymore.

I wish my cousins never touched me...ever...I can't stand being touched anymore...even though we were little it still hurt and made me uncomfortable...just don't like it. It upsets my littles

How did I get trapped into this family? This family built on abuse after abuse...just not necessary...a family shouldn't have this..
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Old Dec 09, 2008, 07:48 PM
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I feel your sadness, it is so hard. I wish my memories would stop surfacing too. I wish I was lost too, because I don't think I will like who I see when I know the details of who she is.
Sorry I can't help, because I feel the same way.
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 10:06 AM
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I'm sorry 99.....
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 12:33 PM
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red, i hope you have a T to discuss this with. if the memories are surfacing you will need emotional guidance to deal with them. those of us who have experienced similar violations can understand your pain. these violations can make us distrustful of everyone. with help you can regain "self" and live again as all of god's children deserve to live. you are worthy and a person of value even tho the "messages" you have gotten from family members makes you feel otherwise.
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Old Dec 10, 2008, 04:21 PM
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red, i hope you have a T to discuss this with. if the memories are surfacing you will need emotional guidance to deal with them. those of us who have experienced similar violations can understand your pain. these violations can make us distrustful of everyone. with help you can regain "self" and live again as all of god's children deserve to live. you are worthy and a person of value even tho the "messages" you have gotten from family members makes you feel otherwise.
I am think that the little you inside is a wonderful little girl, who was taken advantage of, but still I am sure I would love to see her.
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