Flashbacks

Me and my boyfriend were messing around and I had a terrible flashback. I'll give you the background first. Five years ago my bf at the time held me down, grabbed my hand and forced it on a little girl...I haven't been the same since. Well, when me and my bf were messing around he guided my hand to where he wanted it...that did it. I felt like I was back in that place five years ago...just like it was yesterday. I can't handle the flashbacks from that particular event. I didn't tell my bf that I had one...I don't want him to worry. He would. It's been 5 long years since that happened, why can't it just be over with? I never want to feel that again...I never want to know that again!

((((LEXI))))

I'm sorry you had such horrible memories. Perhaps your new bf would understand and be able to help. Do you have a therapist you could talk about this to ?

Keep talking. Getting it out sometimes helps

take care,
Kimberly.

I hope you can explain to your new bf that THAT isn't acceptable behavior. If he wants you to "do" something, he needs to ask you, not force you. That's only being considerate of another human! If he can't handle it, then look for still another boyfriend. I hope you have someone with which to discuss the troubling incident. Do you feel like you need to apologize to the other girl? Do you inwardly want to make sure you didn't traumatize her?