I'm so mad at everyone right now. My brother has moved in and is still in psychosis and no one cares! I emailed my pastors at church and they are non-responsive. I just tried to talk to my mom, and she was "on the other line." HELLO?? I am changing my whole life to take care of him and everyone else is oblivious!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I asked my mom if she could come once a month to visit and she said that she couldn't promise that. DAMN. How in the world does she think she can drop off her schizophrenic son and go back home as if I don't need help. I'm so mad!!!!!!! THIS SUCKS

[kimmydawn]

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it sounds like you need to look for outside, professional resources...clinics, t's, p'docs, support groups, hosps, anywhere that you can find out some information on what your options are.

this is more than a hard situation, and you shouldn't be dealing with it alone! please seek some professional advice...for yourself...and i'm hoping in doing so you can get some good suggestions on how better to handle the situation with your bother.

i'm sending you so many thoughts and wishes right now.

kd

[ktp]

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Honey you have every right to be mad...what a crappy situation to be thrust into! I know you want to do the right thing regarding your brother, as I've admitted to everyone before, I've been in much the same situation with my "mother" saying it was pretty much MY problem and that this or that was "causing" his schizophrenia (e.g. my kids, me, the stress of living with me) It's HER kid, not mine! But, you're all he's got kid. That's apparent. Definitely seek some professional help for you and for him and I'm gonna send you some good thoughts for your strength to handle all that life is throwing at you right now.

Take care

(((hugs for both of you)))
Kimberly.

Oh good Lord, what's wrong with people? (((((((((EV)))))))))) You're most definately within your rights to be angry. I'd be pissed. I hope you can soon find some assistance. Does your brother have a pdoc or tdoc that could ofer some advise?

Thanks you all for listening. I appreciate it. Its actually a big step for me to show my anger, but this definately got me to the brink. I can't wait until i find someone in life that I can depend on.

This didn't warrent a new thread, but i am just so sad lately. I just need to spill all the pain out. I hate when i can't even concentrate on my work b/c there is so much stressing me inside. I just zone out on the internet, tv, or just laying in bed.
I feel like i have no one.
I feel like there is no one to support me, and that makes me feel sad.
I even have resorted to deluding myself that something is wrong with my email, so that I won't feel bad that my pastors have not emailed me back.
But inside, there is still the sinking feeling. I want a hug. I want a phone call. I want numerous calls to check up on me. I want someone who cares so badly. Even my therapist.... I feel like quiting therapy. I really think im going to. Its too hard to do long distance. I am so frustrated and sad about the lack of support. And it all falls on me as i wonder, why doesnt anyone ever care? Why do i never mean anything to anyone? I've just got a huge hurt inside and i can't tell anyone i know because i don't trust anyone. No one is true and honestly inside i hate them because of it. (yes.. i will have to do the forgiveness thing sometime) I'm just tired of hoping in people. I'm tired of being abandoned and rejected. I'm tired of people's apathy and being ignored. And i see that same sad face that i see in my mirror in the face of my brother. My heart hurts.

[h0kie]

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What about contacting NAMI in your area? They might know of someone to help you.

You're in my thoughts.

[ktp]

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You poor dear. Having such a hard time right now, I'm so sorry you're going through all this. It's extremely difficult when you feel like no one cares IRL. But I do care. Keep posting about it, and just keep getting it out. If you want to have a major vent, feel free to PM me and curse a blue streak or whatever you feel like doing. I promise I can take it

Great suggestion 1 day. Very good advice. I also believe wholeheartedly in NAMI.

Take care,
Kimberly.

[darkeyes]

That does suck, I wish I could say something supportive on this, but all I can do is send you some hugs today.

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Sending you wishes for better days to come soon.

[SweetCrusader]

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Thanks all!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need your opinions. This is an email that i sent to this lady at church and her reply. I think im super hyper sensative to rejection. She said i could call her but I felt rejected by her email. Let me know what you think. I guess i just felt like it might be an inconvience for me to call her. I dunno. She knows what is going on with my brother so i expected her to be like..sure...call anytimes.. or actually i expected her to give me a call after reaching out. I dunno... maybe im crazy.. maybe i expect too much..
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Hi ,

Sure, that would be fine to talk. The best time to reach me during the week is between 7:45 am and 2:30 pm or after 8:30 pm. Things can get hectic around after school, homework, bedtime, etc. Of course, if it is urgent, call anytime.

Have a good evening.

Church lady,
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Do you think I could call and talk to you sometime. I think I need a voice of sanity around

Thanks

"me"

[h0kie]

I think it is a good email. She let you know the best time to call her. Yes, anytime would have been a more comforting thing to hear, however, it sounds like she has small children. Most parents don't like people waking up children at night or interrupting your routine.

Yes, her reply could have been better, but it was pretty good!

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[wisewoman]

It was a fine email. She is available as your friend within the confines of her other responsibilities. Being a friend is and should be a responsibility. Sounds like she knows this.