I wasted my therapy session

Last week in therapy I was processing a horrible abuse situation. In the middle of it I wanted to just cry out. I held it in. I had a few watery eyes. My T said I should feel better usually 2 days after processing.

I feel worse. I feel like I didn't do what I was supposed to do. I'm so afraid to just let go. I feel I wasted that session. I've never just let my emotions go in front of someone before. I love my T and I trust him, I just don't want him to see me like that. I don't know what I'm going to do. Could it have been too big of a abuse situation? What am I going to do? There's a part of me just saying forget it, I can't do it. Another part says you have to or you won't survive. I'm too far into the therapy now to stop.

Help!

I am EXACTLY where you are....and I feel as though if I don't move forward with addressing it, I will never heal...but I'm too afraid. Some have suggested not to disclose too much too soon, but I then feel that it's a waste of a session. I'm right there with ya....

((((((( RACEKA )))))))

You certainly didn't waste the therapy session, you managed to disclose some information that was very difficult to do. We quite often block off the feelings in order to try and cope. If you are used to holding those feelings in, it will take time for the feelings to come through. Next time you see T let him know what has been going on, let him know you find it difficult to show feelings in front of him. Print this thread out if you need to.

Be gentle with you, it takes time.

Yes, Raceka, healing is a gradual process. You moved a bit forward and next time you can move a bit more forward......

I can understand how you're feeling very well. Opening up and talking about taboo thoughts and experiences takes a lot of strength and courage. It's great that you're feeling comfortable enough to share! If this is your first time talking about these experiences, I would expect it to take a bit of time to get through the anxiety. You didn't waste time or energy at all.

Very best wishes to you ~ take care

Shez

Thank you all for your support.

no therapy session is wasted even if u sit there and say nothing at all..
its the effort ur making to go
realizing that help is needed
and proving u have the strength to go and get it..
stay strong

I do the same - hold my emotions in. T figured this out and now says to me 'talk through the sadness, what is going on?' things like that. this may be useful for your t to do?
*hugs if you want them*

I told my T this week how I felt after last session and he said "It's ok to be just where you are. That made me feel better. I always feel I don't do good enough. I guess that's part of the reason I'm there and here.

hugs to you all

Good Work Raceka!