[Heather11]

I know it's driven by anxiety and depression but I feel completely inept sometimes at work. I get overwhelmed easily, lose focus- so it takes me longer to complete tasks. Im pulled in so many directions that my individual, hands on skills have suffered. I think I'm just average at what I do. I feel like I walk around with this illusion of capability and control yet I feel the total opposite. I'm under scrutiny and am trying to step up my game but I feel defeated. I'm a supervisor! I have to be in control! I guess I just needed to write it out finally. I fight it just about every day and just try and make it through to the next, trying to make it better.

[ECHOES]

Remember that 'feeling' incompetent is not the same as 'being' incompetent, and it is often about fears we have. Feeling overwhelmed is exhausting. This might be a hard time to be attempting to step up your game. Maybe it would be kinder and feel better to be easier on yourself right now. Is it possible to talk to your boss about this, with the emphasis on wanting to be competent and capable and any suggestions that person might have.

I can so relate to what you wrote. I hope you will talk to your therapist about this too

[Perna]

You have some outside collaboration that you are/can be competent, you are a supervisor.

I would get to know and talk to others on your level, join a community group (my son is part of a business breakfast group, for example)? Perhaps you are feeling too isolated and having trouble judging what is going on because it's just you in your head?

[winter4me]

sounds like nursing (other work places also i am sure) where, these days, we all feel that way if we have any sense.

[healingme4me]

Do you set up a daily task list, to use to prioritize? Just thought that may help a bit, where you are getting overwhelmed and losing focus. Even a phone app or something to that effect, can help, ensure you are getting things done.

Hope you can work out the anxiety with your therapist. Could any homelife stressors be factoring in? Or things like being in a rut at work or a new person that, can be draining, too?

Originally Posted by Heather11

I know it's driven by anxiety and depression but I feel completely inept sometimes at work. I get overwhelmed easily, lose focus- so it takes me longer to complete tasks. Im pulled in so many directions that my individual, hands on skills have suffered. I think I'm just average at what I do. I feel like I walk around with this illusion of capability and control yet I feel the total opposite. I'm under scrutiny and am trying to step up my game but I feel defeated. I'm a supervisor! I have to be in control! I guess I just needed to write it out finally. I fight it just about every day and just try and make it through to the next, trying to make it better.

[Heather11]

Originally Posted by healingme4me

Do you set up a daily task list, to use to prioritize? Just thought that may help a bit, where you are getting overwhelmed and losing focus. Even a phone app or something to that effect, can help, ensure you are getting things done.

Hope you can work out the anxiety with your therapist. Could any homelife stressors be factoring in? Or things like being in a rut at work or a new person that, can be draining, too?

All of the above! I have a main task list and lots of notes. I live for the day when I can sit down and work through a task list. I think I just gave in to all the interruptions and being responsible/accountable for anyone else's needs. It's my job- I have to accept it and deal. And yes it's home, people, ruts and all those factors weighing on me. It's good to just hear from someone who can relate and advise.

[albrecht86]

I've had a chance to supervise others before, and here's one trick that kinda calmed me down: before you let your thoughts get you, ask yourself this: Is the project on track? Are things getting done properly? Are we, at the end of the day, delivering what we ought to?

If so, then congratulations, you are an excellent supervisor, and it's an objective fact (all your goals are met!) you cant disagree with no matter how you look at it

If not, well, what about the BIG picture, what is your overall track record there? What are specific areas you are falling behind on? At least, answering those will help you amend them and improve!