[Hopeshines]

I had originally posted this in 'anxiety' forum, but there was no response. So, I'm posting it here, just in the hopes that maybe someone will come across this and could relate to this experience. So here is it :

I am otherwise ok with going outside, although, would love to stay indoors as much as i can, i have a certain weird sense of anxiety when it comes to going to work.

I have had this butterflies in stomach feeling when in school also. The thought of going to school made me cringe. But i couldn't avoid it somehow. I only loved exams. Because i was prepared well in advance and maybe because there were less interactions. I am an introvert.

After college, i haven't worked much. Since 6 or 7 years, i have been mostly home telling people that i am studying. But the real reason is that i am afraid to go to work. I tried. But i quit after 2 or 3 months. The anxiety build up is extreme. I do not know how to handle. I hate getting up early and then having no time for myself. I need a lot of time for myself. When i don't get any, i feel deepressed.

Also, a lot of interactions also make me feel drained. So i avoid talking much to people. But then i also feel bad when i don't feel the sense that I belong. Why does this happen.? I feel dejected that everyone ignores me and start taking to each other. I feel invisible. I feel as if i am boring. Also, i can't stand bossy and fake people. What i don't understand is that if i don't want to interact with people, why should i feel bad when they make plans without me? Why?

I want to be able to make a great career one day soon and i want to get our of my comfort zone. If anyone had suffered something like this, please enlighten as to how to avoid the feeling of anxiety of going to work. I don't want to take medications.

[SilverNeurotic]

What is your degree in? The first step is to explore carers that are good for introverts, and maybe something with later hours so you have time to prepare yourself and not feel rushed.

I am a classic introvert and I often feel anxiety about work. I also have always worked in areas where I have a lot of interactions...right now I work in a group home for adults with developmental disabilities and I work super long shifts and before that, I was a cashier. So I'm used to working in jobs where I have to force myself out of my general tendencies. In order to do this, I will usually find something that relaxed me to do before work (I read, watch TV or listen to music). That way I am relaxed before heading in for my shift. After work, I take time to decompress. I might nap or spend the day watching Netflix.

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[Hopeshines]

Hi Silver,

I have a degree in finance . I have never liked the field. Currently, however, i cannot afford to go back to college to get another degree

I like doing something that makes me feel like I'm contributing to the world directly, mostly charity work ir helping people achieve greater heights.

The thing is, my current situation calls for me to just get up and earn money to pay the bills and all, so i must.

But i see ni meaning doing it. I feel that i am wasting my life. I know I'll cry everyday getting up for work.

[SilverNeurotic]

Have you looked in the non profit sector for work.I'm sure there is something in your skill set that might work out.

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[Hopeshines]

It doesn't cover my finances though

[spicedlife]

Hi Hopeshines,
I have anxiety also and I take medication for it. I would not be able to work without it right now. There have been years where I did not need the medication and I prefer to not take it but, I really think that seeing a psychiatrist might be helpful. Or I have also found having a therapist to talk to has really helped me with my job. Big hugs to you.

[SomeDay50States]

I can understand that. I get the whole "nervous stomach" thing every day at work.

[Chango]

One of the things that, in me, I know anxiety caused is physical symptoms. To the point that I was bedridden for awhile. I know have identified and admit to myself that my emotions and mental state COULD be and/or ARE causing pain in my stomach, indigestion, headaches, etc; Hard to realize and believe, but it is true. I have to adjust and do whatever I must to cope so that I am well enough to go to work. People at work cause me distress (physical, emotionally and mentally). Here again, I slowly but surely learn to cope on how to DEAL with it day in and out. Only *I* can do it, no one else can do it for me. It is very difficult, but it CAN be done. NEVER lose hope.