[Leyla]

long story short i have been at the same entry level job for the last 15 years, in the past year i was making more errors than i should due to my anxiety peaking.

i have done my best to bring those errors down, but she is still not happy and finds anything to negative to pick on. if i feel overwhelmed and reach out to her she tells me everyone is busy you need to learn to prioritize.... my one on one meetings with her lately have all been negative and nothing positive to say.

she won't recommend me elsewhere because she feels right now i am not competent enough....

this has really shot my self confidence and self esteem at all time low. i am hard worker, i am always on time. attendance is good...

i dread going to work now, i never used to feel this way...the morale in our dept is so low everyone hates it there, she picks on a few people and than she has her favorites.

sorry for the vent, i am trying to think positive thoughts but right now it is really hard. i try to tell myself its going to be a good day, than all these negative thoughts come in.

thanks for the vent.

[eyesclosed]

Hello Layla
I know all the pressure from supervisor is all negative for a bad reason. You have 15 years at one job thats what the problem is. I could be wrong. The three best qualitys of a worker you have. Thats awesome keep your head up focus on your work everyone makes mistakes at work no matter how long you have worked there. Do you really want to start over. You must have vacation time and other benefits that have a lot of hard work behind them. Don't throw it all away because of the supervisor. She won't recommend you because your a good worker.

[Leyla]

thanks eyeclosed for your response. it's not just me, she picks on alot of us in the dept. so it's reassuring to know its not me.

yes i have been there longer but there is alot of changes happening our dept, and we are all going to be learning new stuff or doing new things....so she has no right to compare.

yes it would be hard to start over, i get 4 weeks off in a year.... unlimited sick days to extent, thankfully i don't get sick that often, and good benefits... that is why i feel kinda of stuck right now...

and at the same time this is not something i want to do this for the rest of my life either. sigh.....

[eyesclosed]

High I don't know what type of work it is. If it's repetitive and hard you have a good point. Is that wahy you wanted a transfer. I don't know your age. my last real job was 18 yrs of repetive motion so I understand. Sometimes I have to remind myself that she is under a lot of pressure also. I really relate I never deal with change well