Dread Work...

Sounds like you have some exciting things happening. A puppy and a new house. I think it’s wise that you’re focusing on those positives to keep you going at work.

I had to smile this morning, when as an aside my boss told me she had dreaded coming in today. I told her that I had been feeling the same.

Oh wow. It's not even 6am on Sunday. Haven't work since Tuesday. The dread just set in. Dreading putting up with moods/stress of others. When did it start getting so blech??
Maybe I feeling like looking at those that bring the intensity and saying, Don't you ever stop and think that maybe some of us are a little worried about ailing loved ones? That maybe this isn't the end all in the grande scheme...these things are rather petty, no?

Yup. Money is all that matters to a corporation.

I have this same issue as well. I currently go to school full time and work part time at an on campus student job. I only have to work 2 days a week but I work all day on those 2 days moving furniture and setting up for events. I go to work at 7:30AM and stay till 4:30PM and I make a measily $8.90 per hour (meanwhile the president of the school can afford spending $200k on ****ing furniture for one room but I won't get into that here). I honestly dread waking up on those 2 mornings. I feel like a crying screaming kid and I am irritable all morning unless I drink a full pot of coffee or have an energy drink lol.

I'm at the point where I'm likely going to drop out of college and just resell stuff on eBay and make a living that way. Normal jobs are a threat to my mental health.

Don’t quit school. Hang in there. Your hard work will pay off but it’s not easy. I’ve been there... yes I still struggle to balance things and not allow myself to be overworked... but that’s a boundary setting issue I will have to resolve for myself... Best of luck to you and good job for working hard at making a bright future for yourself.

I'll stay in school for now but I'm still weighing my options.

The only reason why I'm learning web development is because of it's versatility. Yes, you can work a regular job with it but you can also freelance and build your own monetized sites.

I have no desire to work a full time job and sell my soul to a corporation that doesn't care about me. I find waking up every day and going to work to be utter torture. I just want to enjoy my life and not work all the time.

Luckily it is entirely possible to make a solid living off part time work if you work for yourself. Freelance web development, ecommerse, and digital marketing are 3 ways that I know of. I also know that people make really good money off building their own webstores with less than 10 hours of actual work per week so there's that.

I saw your new thread about changes and sticking it out.

I wanted to extend my gratitude for having such a thread. Though, I'm still under a certain amount of stress, since first discovering your thread in November-i think, I've been able to tap into the dread that I was feeling. Much has happened since then and I'm sure the rough patch is yet to be over, but your other newer thread, I'm choosing to battle through this.

I'm owning my discomfort. Sure there is discomfort but it can be empowering to acknowledge that as it is and take steps, whether by reaching out -albeit an appointment date hasn't come forth-to HR. Telling others what my experience has been like, to better record keeping and moving forth with acknowleding the need to use more assertive/direct/non passive communication and also bouncing things off my T.

I'm choosing to stop dismissing my dread, see it for what it is and approach my days with a bit more purpose since the dread and drain was coming from places internally that I try typically to me to dismiss since it's more about personality conflict that when I brush off leaves me as appearing aloof and even more of a target. Unexpected boundary needs, indeed.

I know about how appearing aloof can make you a target. That’s where I had to really learn to speak up for myself and I am no longer a target. I definitely speak up for myself now and my coworkers are aware of it.

I’m really glad you brought up this old thread. It wasn’t that long ago and things have changed quite a bit since then. Granted, there were years of grief and stress before this.

I think I learned a lot when all was said and done. I’m doing better at stepping back and not being so emotionally invested at work. I also worked on and improved areas of my work that needed improvement. I was very sensitive about constructive feedback and now I’m ok with it. I do feel disheartened at times because I don’t get a lot of positive feedback but that’s where the stepping back comes in. I was getting way too emotionally invested at work and taking things much too seriously. It led to personal conflicts as well.

Luckily a lot of positive changes were made by management so that the place has improved a lot. I would not have been able to do so well if things had stayed as bad as they were and I’ve definitely learned a lot from this whole process.

I’ve learned to peacefully exist in the muddled chaos of a fairly dysfunctional work environment. I can’t change it and life goes on. I manage to accomplish my professional responsibilities and let go of what I can’t control.

Thanks again for bringing up this thread. I have really wanted to reflect on the positive changes because I overcame some big hurdles. Never in a million years would I have thought I could have peace at my job. The transfer still hasn’t come through and I am still patiently waiting yet I’ll be ok if I can’t transfer.

Hang in there. It can be done. We can grow stronger when faced with total and utter crap. We really can.

Yes, and every morning since I go to work in the afternoon.