want to quit

want to quit is all I can say right now.

Ozzie always takes the good responses!!

desire to quit is up there for what it will take to do so.

you have lots of ppl to believe in you when you're ready to take the next step.

Good job posting and admitting you want to stop this.

You've already done one of the hardest parts. Admitting to yourself and others that you want to quit. We're here for you to talk about anything you need and ask any questions! ((((((( lrks )))))))

As everyone has said, you've taken a major step already... Admitting you want to quit. That's one of the hardest things to do. We're here when you're ready to talk more about it and surrender. It's a hard step, but so worth it.

Looks like I am late on this one. Yes you have taken the first step. I guess I like to call all our steps baby steps because we have to do them and do them in the right way and not get in a hurry and try getting through them all. This is a lifelong process for all of us. Something every day comes up that I need to deal with. That keeps me on my toes and not to just think that I have been clean for some time now and not to worry about it. That is when I start getting into trouble. Yes, there are alot of support here and I know we all will be more than willing to help you out in any way we can. Hang in there today, today is all we have and can work on.

Allan

Thank you all for your support! I am so afraid. Afraid because 17 years I spent around 12 step programs working the steps, doing as I was told and yet could never keep continuouse sobriety/clean time. 2 years ago I was fed up with keeping on going back and trying.
This is 3rd day sober now which is usally about the just of sober time that I have been able to get these past couple years when I've tried to quit.
I do need help. Rather foggy headed right now so gona go for now.
thank you agin!

Beam me up Scotty!

Hey skylrks,

You can do it.

HugZ~ Down

Thank you down for the hugz and for the site you shared. I put it in my favorites so I can go back and read more. I haven't read all but what I have read this far has surely helped. Was begining to wonder if I was just a lost cause or something until I started reading. Puts things into new perspective for me which is much better than what it was, dooms day.
lrks

Here we find ourselves, unable to drink safely, and unable to stop entirly. Every one of us has found ourselves in that most unhappy situation.

We drink because we no longer desired or could tolerate naked reality.

A few drinks takes all those feelings of inadequately and failure away. And after enough times going to that well of false peace of mind, we honestly believe that we must drink to preserve our sanity.

There is a hole in the middle of our guts that alcohol fills poorly, but it does fill it. It’s like alcohol is a power greater than ourselves. It does for us what we could not do for ourselves. It changes this world from a drab, unloving, life sentence into a techocolor wonderland. The world didn’t change, everybody is still the same, it just works on out outlook.

But the problem is that alcohol isn’t a loving God.

We have to stop, we can’t stay drunk forever. And when we stop drinking, things don’t get better, they get real bad real fast. That hole in our guts lets the wind blow through, and it hurts. In fact it feels so bad that most true alcoholics never find a solution for that empty feeling when we don’t have alcohol in our system. Most alcoholics die wet. That is what we mean by powerlessness, a pitiful and incompressible demoralization.

Let me disagree with Down on this one, There is a simple solution to this problem. And it works. There are hundreds of thousands, millions of drunks just like you that have found it.

We need to fill that hole with something.
This program Alcoholics Anonymous is the last house on the block. When all else has failed, this simple spiritual solution will fill that hole. It works.

Irks, you didn’t mention if you had and used a sponsor in those last 12 years around the program. It might be a good idea.

On the road to the good stuff,
Richard S.

Please don't....I haven't gotten a chance to know you yet.....sending love your way.....hang on......grace

Shadowwalker,

There just happens to be a few holes in your logic and assertions that would seem to indicate that AA has in fact a higher mortality rate than no treatment at all. Read the critiques before spreading the AA brainwashing propaganda.

http://www.orange-papers.org/orange-effectiveness.html

Fortunately truths found by science are also support.

~Down

That is true in so many ways for me.

Down,
I have to adress this to you and others that feel the same. AA has not only kept myself, my father, and a LOT of others sober for years. If you read and TRULY understand the steps you would also feel that about AA. Also I have to point out #1 you have to be willing to quit (ready to stop), admit to yourself you are an alcoholic. What are your views? I want to read something that YOU have come to on YOUR OWN, not someone else's opinion on the fact. Having personally been in chat with you when you speak of AA "as a cult". Where is YOUR proof? My father never "joined". They don't force you to go. EVERYTHING AA has to offer is purely volentary. Give me your side and I shall retract this comment till then I shall stand by my point.

Yes, I had a sponsor for 15 out of the 17 years and yes I did use her. It took me a while to get one when I first went to AA but I did and it took a while before I actually used her.
I did not know this support group was AA based so excuse me for coming here. I do believe the 12 steps are good.
Sorry! I did not mean to start any trouble just looking for support and just wanted you to know that I've done the AA thing , I have tried and tried and worked and worked and here I am and wonder now what? If another person tells me you have to want to be sober I'll just puke. I have always wanted it every time I've gotten sober.