[Psyclox]

Last week friday I git really drunk and depressed at the same time, now this is the first time this has eva happeded to me for when I usually get drunk I'm in a happy mood and I laugh alot and joke with all my friends but this time I was how you say not myself for the first time eva, and believe me I've gone out and gotten drunk just to drown all my sorrows and it neva worked because every time I got drunk I was actualy in a good mood once I was drunk, this is the first time for me and I was always telling people that when I'm drunk I'm always happy no matter what, I even phoned a friend of and explained to her all my problems and told how I felt and that I wanted to kill myself last week wendsday, she was very understanding about it and even said a few words that put a smile on face, which is rare these days, but that didn't change the fact that I got really depro and that worried me for what if it happens again.

[misty]

Well not sure exactly what you may be going through just know that I was trying hard to stay away from drinking and made it over two weeks and then when drank agin I have much anger going on. Had one point where I was a happy drunk another I was depressed drunk and now seem to be a very angry drunk. You are not alone. I know drinking helps me to deal with feelings I have no clue as how to deal with them in real life. Sorry I have no sollution for you just want you to know you are not alone.
I'm not saying drinking is the answer for any thing just struggel with not being able to stay sober/straight.
lrks

[shadowalker164]

Over any appreciable length of time, it just gets worse, it never better.

My drinking worked for me for many years, most of the alcoholics I hang out with tell me roughly the same story. Their drinking worked for them as well.

It always changed the way I felt, and it changed it fast.

But if we go to that well a little too often, what was once a habit has now become a vice. Towards the end of my drinking career, I needed to drink to feel anything other than misery. It wasn’t working so good anymore. In fact, I thought of it as medicine. It didn’t make me feel free and happy anymore, it just keep me from feeling all the pain in my life.

Then I discovered something that caught me by surprise. When I stopped drinking the reality of this world became unbearable. I couldn’t stop drinking and keep all that misery I was trying to avoid from crashing down on me. I couldn’t drink, and I couldn’t stop.

That is the jumping off point.

But there is a solution. I stumbled into my first Alcoholics Anonymous meeting a little over six years ago, and I stopped drinking. But more than that, I no longer feel that crushing burden of anger, bitterness, resentment and loneliness that consumed me. I am free.

You will do what you will do, but I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in how you feel, and there is a way out.

Richard

[Miss_A]

<font color="#000088">Resist temptation to drown your sorrows - Alcohol actually depresses mood, so while it may give you immediate relif from your worries, it is only temporary and you may end up even depressed than before. Too much alcohol stops you from seeking the right help and from solving problems; it is also bad for your bodily health.

*Remind yourself that your suffering from depression - This is something that many people have gone through and you will eventually come out of it, as they did, even though it may not feel like it now.

Sincerely Miss_A.

[BamaSurvivor]

Have to agree with both shadow and Miss_A.

You are self-medicating, Psyclox. Our addictions start out as fun... We drink and/or use to feel relief from our struggles and it works! If it didn't work, we wouldn't continue using. But then after so long of drinking and/or using, the fun high isn't really all that fun anymore and the relief pretty much stops. Why do we continue using after the fun and games have stopped? We've become dependant on our substance of choice. We no longer use/drink to have fun... We use to continue functioning and living.

It seems that's what's slowly happening to you, and I personally would hate to see another soul lost to the addiction of drugs/alcohol. Once you recognize you have a problem, you can then begin seeking help, and not from a bottle or a pipe or whatever drug you use aside from alcohol.

You seem like a good person who tries having good intentions in your posts, don't let that good person die with an addiction that's so strong. Please get help.