[XxLifexX]

Last summer i got into a lot of drugs. I was doing crack, i was doing hallucinogenics, smoking (both cigarettes and marijuana), i also drank all the time. I finally got out of doing crack and drinking, but i couldn't shake smoking. Then, about a week and a half ago i got into drinking again. Every night i've been drinking, getting high, or both. just want to get high, and drink. What do i do??

[2009Dutch]

Wellcome, and good for you to reach out. What I did was admitting that I could'nt solve the problem on my own, and I found help in AA. I have been sober since I joined. There is also NA, and I think you can find them online.
Read the postings here, see how people deal with it, and pick up the things that would work for you! That might be a 12 step program, a therapist, finding support here. Work on it, and keep coming back. Lots of people understand you here and it's a fine community without judgements.
Bless you.

[madisgram]

welcome to pc! your question is a good one cause u're seeking answers to what is causing you to resume destructive behaviors. for those of us that can relate-i'm sober 20 years-they tell us that we will return to using or drinking if we substitite one form of drug for others. it always takes us back to where we were before. the solution is abstinence of all mood altering substances/drugs. alcohol being the granddaddy of them all.
AA works for me but there is also NA in your community too. both are 12 step programs but AA was the first created, thus more long time sobriety. both can be googled to find meetings in your area. i personally don't recommend online meetings unless u are in a remote area. why? part of the solution is meeting ppl with the same challenges as you have. those ppl can offer support and friendship while learning about addictions and how we can become clean and sober.
i hope you will try our way of life. it is amazing what my life has become once i got clean and sober. you will never regret the decision. that i can promise you. the rest is of your choosing.
keep coming back. we're here for you!

[trixielou]

dont beat yourself up i used to drink real bad & smoke crack & started smoking cigs when i was 30. i dont drink or smoke crack anymore but im prescribed klonopins which ive struggled here & there with taking them the way im suposed to. i finally with Gods help started taking them how i should until 2 months ago when i let abusive husband move back & it was just like i was poppin em like crazy until i ran out & had to buy some to get me thru. im bp2 & this was enuff to send me over the edge its like i went into manic mode which i havent had since i quit drinking 4 years ago the drinking relapses really sent me into manic crazy behavior anyways is there something goin on in ur life that sent u back to drinkin or just depression i dunno just some thoughts im not makin excuses but i KNOW for a fact 4 me that the tone of the environment im livin in & lettin abusive person back into my life sends me into a spin i like to workout read my Bible spend time with my kids IN THE CORRECT ENVIRON & just have peace in my life just rambling sorry Bless your heart for realizing u need help as theres so many people who just stay in the fog of whatever they do its not shameful to stumble everyone falls down just need help talking about issues cuz i guess using drugs & drinkin is always just a way of trying to cope & then it just makes everything worse

[trixielou]

btw i was confronted tonight with an old sinister demon hubby got looped snorting a lortab & decided he wanted to call the crack man. the pill made him very mean & say cruel things & made him want crack which i havent done since june Praise the Lord! He ended up leaving & admitting he didnt want the marriage anymore either He demanded money & i was so afraid i gave him what i had just so he would leave other than what i had put bak 4 bills i just so happened to go up in my purse to count the bill $ (habit) & $150 was gone goodness knows ive struggled with drugs but ive never felt so violated as ive tried my best with Gods strength to stay straight i called him & asked him & he said he didnt take it well i got to thinkin when i was on the treadmill he went upstairs & then couldnt find him i found him out on the deck talkin to the dope man so i now know he did take the $ cuz he does not get paid til tomorrow & he didnt have any money & then all of a sudden he did oh well its all overwith & i dont have to worry about the chaos anymore God worked it out Hes been so great & awesome to me thru all my bad choices Jesus forgives us & He wants us to also just believing in Him for a peaceful calm life & to help me take my meds the way im sposed to