[soonforgotten]

All my bad feelings ( depression, anxiety, stress, the whole works) have returned like a ton of bricks. There is a bottle of rum in the kitchen calling me and I'm also craving a joint. why?

[shadowalker164]

Why is there a bottle of rum in the kitchen? If I might suggest, get it out of your house. If you decide to go back out, at least you will have to get dressed and drive to the package store first. Maybe sanity will return by then.

Do you have a sponsor? Call your sponsor if you have one. If not, go to the very next meeting you can find, blow the whistle on yourself about how you are feeling, and get said sponsor.

These feelings come to all of us, it’s what we do about them that makes all the difference. If you are sitting all alone in your house with that bottle of rum, you are in a very bad place. You know that. If you are sitting in a meeting, telling the truth about how things are going in your life, and listening to the suggestions you might hear, then you are in about as good place as you can be.

Also, remember that your feelings are real enough, but they are not reality.

One more thing, have you been eating well? Cravings are the worst when our blood sugar is low. Eat chocolate or hard candies when those cravings get all over you. But make sure that you eat regularly. Hungry ain’t good early in sobriety.

But above all, don’t drink even if your *** falls off.

Richard

[soonforgotten]

Thanks Richard,

The rum belongs to my mother not me, she doesn't drink but has it there incase someone comes by, so I can't throw it out.

No, I don't have a sponsor either only PC forums to vent my feelings.

I guess I'm not eating well either trying to lose weight, for 2 weeks I was on this really drastic diet, no fruits, no carbs, no sweets, no high glycemic vegetables. just meats, cheeses, yogurt, eggs, nuts,fish and soya products. Which really broke me down so badly that now I'm down with the flu, I think I lost my natural resistance to fight it off. that's probably why I losing control and my mind.

but thanks for you advice

Lisa

[shadowalker164]

Lisa,
Please rethink that diet. After you have more sober time, then you can return to your weight loss plan, but right now, eat wholesome foods. Lots of fresh fruits and vegetables. Complex carbohydrates that break down slowly. I feel that your mood swings may be related to your diet.

“in case somebody comes by?” Does your mother know that you are trying to get and stay sober? Throw it out. Tell your mother that you would feel stronger if that rattlesnake called rum was not under the same roof as yourself. Tell her I said so. If she doesn’t drink, than it should be no big deal.

Lisa, why aren’t you trying AA? There are woman’s meetings where you will find a great amount of experience, strength and hope. Maybe even a sponsor. This is your life we are talking about here.

Keep posting sugar, and like I said, don’t drink no matter what.

Richard

[Raynaadi]

I would definetly suggest to your mom that there is no reason to keep rum in the house. "In case" a friend comes over, if they need to drink that bad, they can stop at the bar on the way over. She needs to be supportive of you in this! And you'll feel better if you tell her so. Having alcohol in the house is like having a reservation. And if you make a reservation at a hotel, it's because you're planning on going there. That rum could be the end of your sobriety and it would be worth it to have an akward moment with your mom! Get rid of it! All you have to do is stay sober till you go bed. Then you've made it. When you wake up say to yourself, I only have to stay sober till I go to bed. You don't have to drink or pick up a drug ever again, if you don't want to. Keep posting here, and see if you can hit a meeting. It works!