I'm off work for the next two days, sitting here bored right now and my mind is wandering... Thinking about getting high and cant stop. What am I going to do for two days. Wanna get high but don't wanna get high, such a battle going on in my head right now.

[lynn P.]

((stillhopeful)) - are you under a doctors care for the withdrawl affects? How long have you been clean? I wish I had some great advice. What usually helps you besides the drug? Would keeping your hands busy help?

[Miracle1986]

Is there someone you can call...
a friend? a crisis line? family member?

You might also want to check out http://psychcentral.com/resources/Ad...bstance_Abuse/ for resources

Well, I'm not going through withdrawals anymore, it's more mental now. I did mess up last month but I'm going on 29 days clean now I think, I lose track.
No I don't have anyone to talk to at this moment, that's why I'm here. I got up and did some cleaning, laundry, etc. But now I'm so bored, I hate just sitting here. Don't know what to do with myself. Anxiety kicking in.

[Miracle1986]

Something that helps me is talking to people in PC chat.

[lynn P.]

Originally Posted by stillhopeful

Well, I'm not going through withdrawals anymore, it's more mental now. I did mess up last month but I'm going on 29 days clean now I think, I lose track.
No I don't have anyone to talk to at this moment, that's why I'm here. I got up and did some cleaning, laundry, etc. But now I'm so bored, I hate just sitting here. Don't know what to do with myself. Anxiety kicking in.

Good for you in being 29 days clean - that's great!! Do you have any hobbies - how about going for a brisk walk. There's free meditation lessons online and they help with relaxation.

My daughter was assigned an art project called 'quilling'. I've never heard of it in my life, but I had a great time and I really love it. We spent 2 days rolling strips of paper and I found I didn't think about any worries. So I recommend doing something you love and I think this would help.

Maybe you can also help others who are struggling with their addictions - you would end up helping each other. Is there a support group you could join - having a buddy to back you up, gives you 'accountability'. You're conquering a great monster - so you should give yourself a pat on back for challenging this addiction and staying clean this long. You can do this

Originally Posted by lynn P.

Good for you in being 29 days clean - that's great!! Do you have any hobbies - how about going for a brisk walk. There's free meditation lessons online and they help with relaxation.

My daughter was assigned an art project called 'quilling'. I've never heard of it in my life, but I had a great time and I really love it. We spent 2 days rolling strips of paper and I found I didn't think about any worries. So I recommend doing something you love and I think this would help.

Maybe you can also help others who are struggling with their addictions - you would end up helping each other. Is there a support group you could join - having a buddy to back you up, gives you 'accountability'. You're conquering a great monster - so you should give yourself a pat on back for challenging this addiction and staying clean this long. You can do this

Thank you for the suggestions, I've been thinking of starting yoga. I've heard that it helps with various things.
No, I don't belong to a support group or anything, I guess that would be a good idea. I just don't know. I have a friend that knows about everything I've been through and she's usually here for me but unfortunately she's at work. I know 29 days is good but it just doesn't FEEL like much of an accomplishment to me yet, I don't know why.

[lynn P.]

Yes yoga would be very good and yes it is a great accomplishment so far. Battling an addiction is a tremendous task. I'm happy you have a good friend. Do you have a doctor who helping you - often there are meds that can help.

No, I don't have a doctor. I've been self medicating for my anxiety as I need to. I can't afford to see a doctor right now. I should have insurance next week though through work. I'm starting to feel a little better now, the craving has passed and I'm not as anxious anymore.

[madisgram]

well good for you, still. if ya get antsy later on get busy with something...anything. also sing...mind can't do craving and sing too....i'm only suggesting that one cause u're home. i used to do it in the car and people would stare at me. i'd wave to them like i knew them, lol.

Originally Posted by madisgram

well good for you, still. if ya get antsy later on get busy with something...anything. also sing...mind can't do craving and sing too....i'm only suggesting that one cause u're home. i used to do it in the car and people would stare at me. i'd wave to them like i knew them, lol.

You're so funny madisgram, we think alike too. I put on some music just a little bit ago. I sing in the car also, don't care who sees me, maybe they're listening to the same station. lol

[W2BTN]

singing is a great distraction, it takes so much effort to remember words to songs that it stops you worryin so much about other stuff

[Ira_K]

I have the same problem with time off work. Free time is a massive trigger, and I usually end up in some mess. I can only suggest stay busy, or go for a walk! (but not to the liquor store!) Good luck

[madisgram]

stillhopeful, ya doin' okay?

[waynec]

Originally Posted by stillhopeful

I'm off work for the next two days, sitting here bored right now and my mind is wandering... Thinking about getting high and cant stop. What am I going to do for two days. Wanna get high but don't wanna get high, such a battle going on in my head right now.

find something you can really get into, preferrably something with your hands and mind. i build models and i really enjoy the building part. iget really relaxed just taking my time. not so as yet with the painting because i am not that good yet. this a mind hands focus thing. i have a windowed corner in my study with 3 lamps for light and warmth. when i get anxious at home i take a hot bath with hot tea and cold lemon water, a good book or a puzzle book like crosswords. when i get really anxious i pull out a jig saw puzzle. you can get them small and cheap at goodwill. i find i can really get lost for hours in them.

[trixielou]

yeah earlier in the month i had a couple of times where i thought about crack & had the urge to smoke some. i always think into the next day cuz the sun will come up & how hopeless i would feel if i did it & then if i do it it starts the whole binge thing over again. how that stuff just about ruined my life not to mention the booze the dark places i went with all of it thats why i say im so thankful for Gods grace love & mercy Hes shown me thru all of my screwed up choices not big on aa or na but in the biginning of sobriety i had to have it to stay clean. now i rely on God Jesus & His flawless Word