[2Much2Little]

Hello, I am 18 years old, and I feel like I am always looking for a high, No matter what it is. First time I got high (weed) was with my grandma (yea not good role model), after that I kept doing it and loved it, Then I had to stop because I joined the Marines. I smoked (Like a loser) before I went toBoot Camp, I admitted to that and then they kicked me out. I have been clean for about 7 weeks going on 8 weeks from weed, but Since then I have constantly been trying to get a high off anything- Markers, Nutmeg, medicine. I know its dangerous and I hate it. Im scared to talk to my parents about this problem because They already are disapointed of me because I was kicked out of the Marines, I dont know if I can handle anymore Disapointment. I do have another chance to earn there trust back and I can also join the Army. Heres the question, Im going up to my cousins cabin this weekend and he has a lot of weed.. If I smoke I will have to wait to join the Army and I have no time, but I dont know if I will be able to control it, Because im so addicted, like at the very thought of it I get excited.. Okay now heres the question, Without seeing professional help or help from my parents, How can I help control this. Thank You!

[Willcat]

The simple answer would be don't go to your cousins cabin. Being newly committed to living a life drug free can be difficult at first. Being around weed may be too much of a temptation for you. It might be better to avoid as many triggers to use as possible.

What has helped me, is to be focused on what I need to do stay on track with my addiction treatments. One tool is to think about the consequences of using and how it would rob me of the opportunities that are very important in my life. To deeply realize that I have a choice to throw away what I desire to accomplish by getting high or do absolutely everything necessary to stay safe from a relapse.

Here are some recovery tools that you may find useful.

SMART Tools
http://www.smartrecovery.org/resources/toolchest.htm
http://www.smartrecovery.org/resourc...clesessays.htm

[gypsyque]

hello 2much2little, i kinda agree with willcat's advice 2u... In this situation, staying away from potential 'triggers' and changing ur enviroment is the place to start if ur not going to seek professional help or confide in a parent(s). Then again, if you dont get professioal help now this may come back to haunt you at another major stepping stone in your life...like getting married or becoming a parent or when life gets you down. Learning coping mechanisms while your young is easier than trying to learn them 20yrs down the track when one has a lot more baggage to carry & possibly a lot more mental health problems to sieve thru. It becomes a jungle out there & the beasts (drugs) mange to find the vulnerable! A few weeks away from ur cousins and/or triggers will give u the head start u need to get urself into the marines/army if of course this is what u really want. Stay strong ay?

[madisgram]

Im going up to my cousins cabin this weekend and he has a lot of weed.. If I smoke I will have to wait to join the Army and I have no time, but I dont know if I will be able to control it, Because im so addicted, like at the very thought of it I get excited.. Okay now heres the question, Without seeing professional help or help from my parents, How can I help control this. Thank You!

for those of us that have kicked addiction we know/learned to avoid ppl, places and things that put us around substances. if we do not, it's a recipe for disaster.
it sounds like you wish to stop using. it sounds like you could have a promising opportunity with the military. there are many ways to help you kick the habit. for me, i chose AA 21 yrs ago. it worked. so take that desire and hold on to it. you can succeed. take it one day at a time. stay away from situations that will tempt you. i wish you well. please let us know how it's coming, we care. we've walked in your shoes. we understand your struggle. drugs control us, we don't control the drug. but you can overcome this. you have the desire to be clean.

[beauflow]

2much2little, i can't say much more than the others. These are very good things to go by. I never went to rehab which sometimes i do think i missed out on some things but i stay strong*one biggy is my boyfriend who supported me at the time i was quitting, he was just a friend then* but also due to i know the life i had was no good for what was going on and what i'm dealing with now and to get up away and stay away is a very liberating feeling. It took me several times of failing before i finally stopped and saw myself outside of the box. I couldn't live or be around others using hard drug. i had to leave after a month of temptations among other the things the last and final time i decided i wanted to change for the better. Leaving my brother and friends not just some strangers. I know how hard it is to tell some one you love no i don't want to get high. My brother thought i was snobish among other things but ya know today he tells me atleast i'm trying (he still uses sadly). It does create a block but i hope your cousin and you have more than just getting high together. I wish you well and that you make it in the army. And i think you should read the other's posts with heartly hearing ears. best wishes and stay strong and remember do what's best for you