[notz]

Not feeling right sized at the moment...

[roads]

Why not? You sure fit in here just right.

[notz]

too much ego, not enough humility

[roads]

Celebrating three weeks? Or too much me?

[notz]

what? I don't think I understand.

[roads]

Where is the ego too active, where is humility lacking? Are you feeling badly, is that what you mean?

[notz]

not you or PC anything...just me and my volunteer gig

[roads]

Is the pest causing problems, or just problems happening?

[notz]

in general

clean and clear. no madness to report. have a nicely enjoyed day. tks...

[ladyjane4rent]

Wow, thank you. That made me feel really awesome, I am going to throw that into my signature. Thank you so much. :-)

Originally Posted by Roadie

ladyjane4rent, I apologize that I didn't locate the 3-wk chip for you a few days back when you marked your date. This is "an occasion" and I commend the two of you for standing together and supporting each other in this heroic effort. You are blessing your relationship in a way that can only endow each other.

You are hereby each presented
a TWENTY-ONE DAY chip
in a virtual acknowledgment of your efforts.

.....hallooooo, soberrrrrr ..

clean clear and happy. OWO WOW!!!! tks Gd...

[madisgram]

in AA they tell us procrastination is a character defect. well i've got that going on now. i need, need, need to do my taxes today!!!

[roads]

Originally Posted by madisgram

in AA they tell us procrastination is a character defect. well i've got that going on now. i need, need, need to do my taxes today!!!

Make me hide, madisgram, go ahead . Didn't get w2 from employer & didn't bug them in time, kept thinking I'd just not gone thru mail sufficiently & was hiding in magazine or somewhere--but I truly didn't get it. Now have to file for extension. & I worked for H&RB *ssh, don't tell*

Oh, woe...

I found out recently that an old timer from the AA meetings had passed away. I had liked him immediately for his terse kernels of wisdom. He used to say, "If you don't want to get drunk, don't pick up a drink." It took me a while to internalize this-hard as it may seem for such a simple statement-but now I miss hearing it from him. I think everyone would do well to find a mantra like this and repeat it every day until it penetrates those liquor-soaked heads of ours. Don't pick it up and the madness will stay in check for another day. Here's wishing another sober 24 to all.

[gma45]

Sober today! Went to not one but two meetings yesterday. It made me feel good just being there. Keeps me out of my own head and thoughts which can get me all confused.

clean clear and grateful

[notz]

only coffee, Coke Zero later.

[gma45]

Went to a meeting tonight once again it was a good thing for me. I still don't feel like I fit in but I will keep going back I suppose.

[notz]

Having a hard time...don't want to drink but don't want to be conscious either.

[roads]

Originally Posted by notz

Having a hard time...don't want to drink but don't want to be conscious either.

Drinking is more for an addict than not being conscious. Drinking is surrendering to that addiction, giving up control, letting ... whatever ... have its way with us perhaps during blackouts.

Drinking is struggling again to find some shard of "me" amid the chaos of the drunk that I can reconstruct (again) into a whole person, who needs to crawl along the path to sobriety (again).

Drinking isn't one drink, just a way not "to be conscious" till some alarm clock wakes us. One drink for an addict may be a lost afternoon, a spell in jail, time in-and-out of awareness of a loved-one's face watching anxiously from some ICU bedside. It may be death. We just don't know where that one drink will take us.

But we do know that drinking is not a solution. Drinking for an addict, like us, adds to whatever problems exist. There are enought already.

Write. Make a mask. Do something physical--physically exhausting (but not physically risky). Go to a dog park or a shelter and exhaust a few dogs. There are mindless safe activities to lose yourself in.

Go, get lost, in some way that will help but a way you can come back from & won't have to pay or suffer any more for.

Roadie

I am getting the urge to smoke all of a sudden, I am telling myself "no" but it is so hard.

[roads]

At 3 to 4 months, the psychological comfort is still there. Don't let it throw you. Check the literature, you'll see it's common so take strength in that. You can hang on!

[notz]

I'm hanging in too!!! You can do it!

(I have some hard days in front of me, it's good to know y'all are here)