[leejoseph]

Ive been a on and off alcoholic for 20 years,benzos and oppiates for about 11 years.My wife has about the same history.We have both been sobering on and off for the last 15 or 16 months but have been completly sober ecxept a .25mg klon for sleep at night for about 7 months.Well anyway after 7 months i feel worse then i did using.Does it ever go away theres days i feel im so phsically and mentally weak that im really dieing from some onknown disease.This may be the worst ive ever felt in my life.I stay so tired no energy.Ive tried prescripyion vitimans over the counter meds.Just always feel sick.I really dont even know what im stating or asking.Just if anyone has suggestions or comments,im very interested.Thanks

[Perna]

I would go to the doctor and get a good physical with blood tests and explore from there. You could have all sorts of things out of whack from all the drugs for so long; body chemistry is really really complicated. Your liver or other organs could have problems or you just could be down specific vitamins (but vitamins and minerals work in groups with each other so taking one and not enough of another, etc. can make you worse) or hormones, etc.

[splitimage]

I too would suggest going to a Dr. for a complete physical and to talk about how you are feeling. Many alcoholics/addicts self medicate underlying problems and once they're clean the underlying problems become clearer/worse. I know that once I initially stopped drinking and had been sober about 2 months my depression got worse than it ever had, and I wound up being hospitalized for 8 weeks while they got my meds sorted out.

Good luck.

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[madisgram]

hi lee, i too recommend you go to your gp doc. a blood test may be helpful to get to the bottom of these symptoms.imo.

[littlebitlost]

Hey, I just threw out a big post on this in soberrecovery. com/org?

In the NA section. Feel free to PM me.

[moremi]

I remember in rehab them saying something about a sixth month fog. I believe i had it too. Just hang in there. Ur getting better and u will feel it one day.

[notz]

yep, doctor visit, blood workup, check out diet, vitamins and get thee to a 12 step meeting. You didn't get here overnight & it'll take more than 6 months to get a leg up on alcohol and drugs. 12 step people have experience with this...may as well give it your best shot.

[roads]

Hey, leejoseph. I come to echoechoecho: Doctor. Blood/diet check. 12-step meetings.

I remember the early days, & I'm sure it seems a long time for you--but there is just so much for your body/mind to undo. You very likely need medical support, & I wouldnt have made it without my meetings. Those people & my sponsor were my lifeline.

I've been in and out of recovery for a while also. I feel good today. I've been clean about a year and a quarter this time. I drank a lot of water, it kept me busy, both drinking water and peeing. Anything but just sitting. I used hard candy also. I walked regurally. This habit has stayed with me. I walk for fun, everyday now. I feel like a kid again. I read the alcaholics anonymous book, cover to cover also. That was very informative and inspiring and kept my mind busy. I think getting a physical is a good idea also. Stay clean! See you.

[gma45]

Here I am saying the same thing.....Have you been checked for HepC ? Get your blood tested it is important.

[Caretaker Leo]

I will echo/repeat what others have posted. Please go in to your doctor and get a physical and full blood workup. Hopefully your wife will too.

With your history, there is the chance you have HepC and it does cause a lot of fatigue. My hub has it. There are different HepC genotypes and some people respond terrifically to the newer anti-viral meds now available.

Wishing you the best!

[bookscatscoffee]

Hi leejoseph,

Have you heard of PAWS?

I tried to post a link but my post count must be 10 or great before I'm allowed to do so.

[Suki22]

I'd really like to hear from leejoseph and see how you're doing? also, bookscatscoffee, what does PAWS stand for? I could only find pet shelters. if you can't post a link, can you be a little more specific? thanks!

[ape9090]

OMG I felt so alone until i read all these posts. less than 1month ago i went to a RDD detox center in Vegas and paid them $10,500 to put me under anethesia to flush all the opiates (lortabs) i had been abusing for 3years and now I feel empty. I have only a part time job. I moved away from my family and friends so i could deal with this without putting the ones i love in the middle. I have done just what the doc ordered, gosh i take more pills he prescribed me than as many lortabs as i would take in a day, I am so depressed and I want to get better asap. I just stay at home all alone, reading books and looking online. I take B12, Lumiday, Naltrexone, Clonidine, Xanax, Adderol, Paxil, Trazodone, & Melatonine and I still feel like crap.

[leejoseph]

Ive been to my MD so many times tellin him how bad i feel,and he ran a few test hiv,hep,ra ,lyme disease and every thing comes back with descent results.But i really stay so tired and fatigud.im not as stong not as get up and go and i constantly ache and generaly keep a very mild fever but he just never finds anything wrong in my bloodwork.Im just really feel like i have some kinda disease but nothin shows up.Just dont know if withdrawal after so long can be so bad.Just curious,outta thoughts on it?

[Caretaker Leo]

Originally Posted by leejoseph

Ive been to my MD so many times tellin him how bad i feel,and he ran a few test hiv,hep,ra ,lyme disease and every thing comes back with descent results.But i really stay so tired and fatigud.im not as stong not as get up and go and i constantly ache and generaly keep a very mild fever but he just never finds anything wrong in my bloodwork.Im just really feel like i have some kinda disease but nothin shows up.Just dont know if withdrawal after so long can be so bad.Just curious,outta thoughts on it?

Did he test thyroid? Your iron and Vitamin D levels? Those are the ones that jump into my brain right now.

[bookscatscoffee]

PAWS stands for Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome.

[leejoseph]

Well still feel like crap!!

[leejoseph]

Ive been sober for so long now.My mind is so clear.Memories comin back.No withdrawals at all.Still get the feelin of just wanting a buzz to make my day better.Just cant get to feeling any energy or excitment.I stay so tired and down and out.No diseases or vitamin defencianses.Ive came off a lot of different drugs speed,oxycodone,benzos and alcohol.Its been 8 or 9 months now.Just dont know why i cant get back to life.I stay secluded just cant find the energy to go out and enjoy my day.Just dont understand?????????????

[roads]

My alcoholic drinking was an attempt to forget a life full of hurt and loss. I drank myself senseless and when I regained consciousness several years later, I still had the reasons I drank in the first place to deal with.

IDK whether this is anything like what's keeping you from getting "back to life," but though I'd mention the possibility.

Drinking is so often just self-medicating--so addicts need to figure out what it is we're medicating with drink/drugs and find a healthy way of coping instead.

Roadie

[madisgram]

leejoseph have you disussed these feelings with a/your therapist?. i see where you have depression, etc in your profile. i found therapy really helped me deal with so many things i'd hidden from myself including not feeling safe outside. i self medicated with alcohol to keep feelings checked cause i couldn't do life well. so i used AA and therapy together in early sobriety, had major bloodwork too.
i've been offline the last 2 days so my suggestions may be redundant here. also if you're on meds maybe they aren't a good fit for you.