broke my record

Haven't smoked pot in 2 days more then I've ever gone without doing it, today I spent all my money on weed and I've already smoked half of it, I don't think ill ever be able to quit it makes me not think of all the things I'm stressing about

Yes, and when it's ALL GONE, what happens?? You feel WORSE than you did before. What's the use of smoking it? Does it CHANGE anything? Does it make anything better?

All you're doing is throwing good money after bad. It doesn't help to smoke it. You're doing the same thing over and over again, hoping for different results. It's INSANE!

This isn't going to help you stop stressing. It's going to make you stress MORE.

You'd be smart to stop smoking all together. You'd save a lot of money. You'd be healthier. You wouldn't have brain fog.

i used alcohol to not cope or to cope with negative emotions/feelings. i was self medicating. course that meant i had to drink continuously to keep those feelings away. i had never felt like i was like everybody else. those ppl who dealt with things easier than me. result=addiction to alcohol.
when i did recover from alcoholism i knew i had to learn how to deal with life too. (cuz life was the kicker) i went to therapy. it was a long and sometimes painful process. i feared what i would find inside me. but the outcome helped me stay sober too. i wasn't carrying all that stuff i had been carrying with me for so long. i had learned thru AA and therapy new coping skills, etc. can't say i can do it perfectly but those 2 things, justme, made all the difference.
hope this makes sense. i believe you could do this too if you choose. it's a new way of living.

That makes complete sense and I can relate except I take out my feelings and emotions with smoking pot, it doesn't make sense to ppl and I know I look so stupid but its harder then it looks to quit. How long were you in therapy for? What was it like?

[QUOTE=Leed;2494557]Yes, and when it's ALL GONE, what happens?? You feel WORSE than you did before. What's the use of smoking it? Does it CHANGE anything? Does it make anything better?

All you're doing is throwing good money after bad. It doesn't help to smoke it. You're doing the same thing over and over again, hoping for different results. It's INSANE!

This isn't going to help you stop stressing. It's going to make you stress MORE.

You'd be smart to stop smoking all together. You'd save a lot of money. You'd be healthier. You wouldn't have brain fog. [/QUOT

I crave it, I crave the feeling after it, all of it. Its sounds stupid but I can't help myself not to smoke it even when I know its not doing me any good. Afterwards ill feel so much more depressed but I still crave it. I can't just stop smoking it, its a lot harder then that.

whyme i started therapy right when i got sober. the T had extra schooling in addiction. that really helped cuz he understood how we think. so the therapy and AA went hand in hand. i went to therapy for quite some time. i had been carrying loads of baggage. i had a lot of false beliefs about myself...like i was a "worm", Had no value, freak, you name it. i didn't understand life at all. i felt i just breathed air as i called it. weed like alcohol is a depressant. so it intensifies our depression.
it takes what it takes, they say, but i wish i had come to my senses earlier in hindsight. addiction shackles us with a heavy weight. we don't enjoy freedom. addiction dictates to us when, how, and how much. it will destroy us eventually-sooner or later. sobriety gives us our life back. and it's been quite a good ride for me.
my thought is why not try NA? it's free and can help teach you how to stay clean one day at a time. you'll hear how others got clean. you'll find lots of support there. it can offer you HOPE. we've all been where u're at so we totally understand.
your addiction beats you up everytime u use. you deserve more than that in your life.

I really don't want to tell anyone, I don't want to end up in a mental hospital or somthing, can I still try NA without my parents knowing? I really appreciate the advice your giving me I feel like there's no point in even getting help anymore because I'm already done

YES whyme. you can go without anyone knowing and in a narcotic anonymous meeting means even the people in NA can't say you were there. i've seen teens at meetings often too. so not to worry bout that, friend.
as for ending up in a mental hospital your drug use would not cause you to go. i think a lot of what makes you feel this way is the weed. but if you could go to therapy a lot of your pain will be addressed. do you think your parents would allow you to go? are you under 18?
also are you feeling so down you feel there's no solution?
thank you for your kind words, whyme. i'm always here to help if i can.

I have smoked weed because pain disorder. And I must say it's the best medicine anyone can ask for. Will I ever quite? anything is possible. it's a hole lot better than opiates you think?

Well I'm only 15 the only reason I would want to tell my parents is because they wouldn't think it was needed, I smoke everyday but my mom thinks I quit and I'm doiung fine now, thankyou for everything I went on the ottawa NA site and I found out about meetings

good for you, whyme! one of the first things needed for one to get clean is the WILLINGNESS. it sure sounds like you have it. let me know how it goes after a meeting, k? you are mature for your age. many young ppl don't see they have a problem cause they think they are too young. so glad you see you need help. you will never regret it and you'll get such a better life than with weed.

Thaankyou madisgram!& ill make sure to let you know how the meeting went

Leed - Will you be my therapist?

okay, so you smoke pot? and that's a problem because? you're not clear about why you want to stop. do you have a reason to stop yet?

note: i'm neither condoning nor minimising your behaviour.

i haven't used drugs of any sort for some time now, but i kinda needed a reason(/s) (ie: consequences) to stop when i eventually did. once i found a good reason to stop, it made it a little easier. in other words, it may eventually be worse for you to use than it is for you not to use.

hey, i guess the penny that finally dropped for me was realising that i would NEVER be able to stop using TOMORROW. i had to find a way to stop TODAY. if i stopped today, there was a pretty good chance that i could stay stopped tomorrow. if i didn't stop today, it was gonna be damn near impossible to stop tomorrow.

regarding your question about parents finding out about NA: they won't find out, unless you tell them.

maybe give yourself a break, give yourself a chance and give NA, or some other program a bash, see if it works for you. maybe it does, maybe it doesn't. if you give it a try (for real) it will probably work.

best of luck!!!