wanting it

lol im excited to watch the south park episode thanx!.
it is hard to not do drugs when people around you do them. i mean a part of me wants to stop. its just that a part of me likes it. i dont know if im that independent to lose almost all my friends when ive been really close to some of them.
while being effect by the drug you feel differnt. its never actually good. ive never had a good high before. but i still do it.when i do drinking or drugs. i dont do a little no. i make sure that im plastered. when i drink. i get drunk off my ***. or when i smoke. i have hullucinations. if im gonna do it. i guess make it worth it.
ill check those sights out thanx.
i know all of this bad for you. but its crazy how people continue to do the worst for themselves. its like someone rollin the dice. i dont decide anything.

So, you just smoke weed and drink every now and then. Alcohol will do more damage to your brain than weed. Long term use of abusing alcohol and your brain will turn to %#@&#!. Alcohol is more dangerous than weed. More people die each year from alcohol related stuff than weed.

Weed is not %#@&#! compared to other drugs. I mean a lot of the people in this particular thread have most likely already messed up their brain on abusing hard drugs and alcohol. Then they tell you to go to AA/NA where none of them are doctors. If you think about it, some of these people may have brain damage from abusing hard drugs and alcohol.

Are you smoking crack or banging heroin in your parents basement? That stuff is bad news. If you start that stuff you will guaranteed to turn into either a crackhead or a crack ***** prostituting yourself to random people for a little bit of rock or heroin.

Ok, again, this has nothing to do with my opinion of weed as many of you know, but I don't see your issue (Woods) about WHICH substance you choose, but rather that you're both a) trying to find ways to take your mind off difficult thoughts, and b) are concerned that you have an addictive personality.

I have daily access to both alcohol and weed, but it doesn't present any kind of dilemma for me and I don't have to struggle not to partake. I'm not saying I'm specially disciplined or anything like that; my point is that your own survival instinct is sending up red flags about your own behavior, and I think you need to listen to them. Along those lines, I think that Amerikasend gives good advice -- if you're worried about something fairly benign like weed, then you definitely want to stay away from hard drugs. I mean, everyone should, but when people talk about weed being a 'gateway drug', I don't believe it's true for everyone. BUT, it is definitely for those who are compelled to alter their mind (which it seems like you are), then you want to nip that tendency in the bud (no pun!) and get yourself into therapy pronto.

Good luck Woods -- I don't see this as a problem with drugs or alcohol at this point. I think it's more that you are unhappy and seeking relief from it. But if you don't address your problems NOW, then the drugs/alcohol could soon become a problem and make you even unhappier than you are now

hugs,
LMo

haha i guess your right. people are way worse then me. i dont think ill do any of those drugs. hopefully not. yeah therapy.

i guess its all up in the brain,eh?

thanx for the good advice. your right. ill be fine. im doing anything heavy. and i dont drink or do drugs. everyday. every week. or two. so i think im good.

thanx. sry i guess i tend to think things are worse then they seem.

What do you mean "hopefully not"? Who is in control here? YOU are! So just don't do it.

And wait - I definitely didn't mean to imply that you shouldn't take your behavior seriously -- you definitely should. I just think that it would not be enough for someone to say "ok Woods -- put your mind to it and JUST SAY NO to weed and alcohol". Of course you should say no -- that's a given, especially your age and the legality of it all. Instead, I think you need to address WHY you feel compelled to alter your mind on such a frequent basis and at inappropriate times (like at school). Therapy is what's needed for that.

I'm cheering for you to feel better soon, Woods,
LMo

i understand lmo. im sry right now things are alittle outa place.
i dont know whats control over me. i really dont. i cry telling myself to stop. i just cant. its amazing. ive read the bible for hours. cried. and still felt that i couldn't stop. if God cant save me i dont know how to stop it. i dont know why i do it. i thought it was to exscape but now i just like it, its both. i have no idea what im doing. but its like i have no control. ask me if i want alchohol and ill do it. ask em if i wanna do crack and ill do it. ill do it all. except for needles. mushrooms you name it. for some reason it doesn't matter. ask me to go steal something ill do it. my guy friend just told me he stole something. and somehow something came out of my mouth like...."ill go with you next time and well steal some good stuff" its like i have no control. ill do anything

Ok Woods... I consider this an emergency. You need to get some professional help NOW.

Please find a competent therapist immediately. I see that you live in my state. Let me know if you need help finding someone who can help you.

((((((((( Woods ))))))))))

LMo has given you the best advice possible. Please get professional help immediately.

My very best to you,

Jan

This girl should try to find a psychiatrist and a therapist that specialize in helping Adolescence's and perhaps one that may know a thing or two about drug use. But, it would probably be more beneficial to this girl if the therapist or psychiatrist understood about how the adolescence brain works.

well until then i get one i dont know what to do. im smoking mj tomorrow. and driking alcohol at the same time.

then over break my friend and i are gonnna head over to this guys house (hopefully), he's got mushrooms, coke,....you name it. he's got it. and some how i guess i want it.

well i guess its good news but i think i found a T. but i just found out tonight. so ill have to call tomorrow. who knows when ill see him?

thanx for caring. i dont know what gets into me sometimes. oh yeah but the guy T that i would get does specialize in young adults.

ok, Woods. If you're talking about a FUTURE event, now I see this as a matter of you making a choice to dig yourself in deeper. Exactly what kind of support are you looking for here? Are you asking for help or just telling us that you're going to do whatever you want to do regardless of the fact that you know better?

i dont know. i dont even know what im doing. gosh im so confused. whatever, i dont think ill do any of that stuff. ill be okay.

i confuse myself. i understand what your saying though. not a good idea. i know better.