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The days meals:
3 cups of coffee with half andhalf and stevia
Lunch=
1 cup of Chicken salad with apples and walnuts and
1 cup of swiss chard cooked.
dinner=
2 oz of sharp cheddar cheese
1 slice of ham, deli style
2 oz of pork chop
whole avocado
1 oz of smoked almonds
and I am full.
going to the gym to walk on the tred mill for the first time in ages.
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I am proud of myself. I walked 3.1 miles on the tred mill that is a 5K.
Ate well and am AF drinking a diet ginger root beer.
My carb count was low for the day.
I call this a win!
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had delicious food in reasonable quantities.
Lunch=
8 oz of chicken, 1 cup of smothered cabbage, 1 cup of boiled beets., 1 cup of collard greens
Dinner=
6oz of talapia in coconut oil, 1/2 cup mixed fruit,1 tablespoon of coleslaw,
1 cup of chunky veggie soup.
Had a friend over for dinner, we were all full.
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I am on day 4 of my diet/life style which also excludes alcohol.

Low carb less than 50 grams and IF intermittant fasting, eating only 2 meals a day and no snacking at night. I skip breakfast naturally so eat 2 meals a day already. so an 8 hour or less eating window. The only thing I have in the morning is half and half in my coffee which is about 4 tablespoons. I hope this doesn't break my fast. I have asked this question on another forum about low carbing and IF that I am now participating. Will be anxious to hear what they think. I would rather not give up my cream in my coffee but I will if they say so. I still use stevia toffee flavored to sweeten the coffee with out any carbs and naturally sugar free as stevia is a plant.
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who is still in her pj's!

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Today was a fairly low carb day.
noon lunch:
chicken thigh with spinach stuffing and wrapped in bacon. yum!
a bowl of squash soup which was wonderful and I bought a quart to take home. It has fewer carbs than a butternut squash and 1 cup collard greens.
7pm dinner:
6 oz of chicken with pesto and 2/3 cup of brocolli, and half an avocado.
I will try to be fasting until 1130am tomorrow
I found out that my cream does matter so I will drink it with just stevia sweetener.
I snacked on almonds and cheese when I first got home and at 2pm when I was feeling a bit peckish.I am full and am getting ready to go to the gym.
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edited to add that I never made it to the gym.... oh well.
Hubby and I are beginning to think about going to paris to see an art exhibit in late september early october. Gustov Klimt it is a video art exhibit. __________________

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I remain AF 5th day.

Had a good lunch:
1115am rotisserie chicken thigh and leg (ate the skin),
swiss chard
bowl of creamy tomato veggie soup.
afternoon snack 1 oz of almonds
dinner:
5pm 3oz Tuna, salad with onions, celery and 1 cup of tomatoes,

2 tablespoons of mayo

2/3 cup of squash soup
1/2 cup of blueberries
I am feeling a bit peckish, so am chewing on some more sugar free gum.
I already drank 24 oz of diet root beer and la croix.
So this is more a mental thing.
Although I went to the gym and walked 3.2 miles at 5% incline for 66 minutes and supposedly burned 474 calories. So I have a reason to be hungry. But I will try to stick it out and make it until 1130am for an 18 hour fast. Going to weigh myself tomorrow.
Started a yeast/fungal detox today and also started taking a supplement for hot flashes called fermented maca. I ordered something recommended by a forum poster for memory. Can't recall off hand what it is called. But my memory is so poor I will take any thing to improve my recall.
I already take turmuric, and fish oils.

I know this is a lot to start taking at one time. If I have side effects how will I know which one caused what?....maybe I should only start one thing at a time. Think I will wait for the detox....and just start with maca for my hot flashes since that is the most bothersome symptom right now, and wait on the detox and memory until I fully get the maca in my system.

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I had less hot flashes last night, maybe a coincidence.
better sleep woke up at 8 well rested. so that is good. I really like not having an 8;30 appointment. So I can get up naturally, with out the alarm.
I took my first day of maca for hot flashes and it did seem to help last night.
Take them with meals so it will be twice a day.
Getting on the scale today:

176.2
lost one pound in 4 days. ( one pound is 4 sticks of butter!)
I will take it

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sigh
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About 7years ago I was down to 122, I am 5'7". I kept looking at the scale and thought like you did maybe I could get to 120. I was sick/manic exercising and dieting. It took me falling and breaking my collar bone to finally wake out of it and started eating freely again.

So last november I was my highest in years. 186, that is a 64 pound weight difference. I gain 50 pounds in the past 2 years.
so I will take 176 and start feeling more in control again.
My eating is under control, as is my drinking being alcohol free.
now if I could just a get more moderation on the computer, that would be great.
my right nipple hurts on the flat smooth part, can't remember what that is called.
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About my breast. It is a surface pain almost like there is a splinter that gets triggered when brushed across if that makes any sense.
I will just take the maca for a while to see if I have any side effects from that so far none but it has only been a few days.
I think my hot flashes have diminished, not as intense. It maybe coincidence.
But I will continue taking it. IT IS VERY expensive so I have to decide if a little difference is worth the extra money.
$40 for 24 days worth.
any way we are off to go have gumbo and I see 2 clients out of town today. An hour away is this town called Iota. Their daughter guilted me into going, but the money is good and it is only once every 2 months. I go on a saturday as a 4 hour block of time is not feasible during the week.

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Had a light dinner -coconut milk and tomatoes and lentils Soup and half an avocado. Still wanted more to eat so had some chocolate and some dried cherries and blueberries and some nerds candy. I am chewing a big wad of gum and sipping diet/stevia ginger root beer. Ate in my window of time noon to 7 then will eat at 11-12 for 16 hours of a fast.

Jeff is gone having a beer with a friend after a gig that they played for a fund raiser. He played banjo which he borrowed from a friend...she has a really nice banjo. He gives her lessons during the school year thru continuing ed.

I made a deposit but should be sending out bills to families. Have to bill in order to get paid. I am about 2-3 weeks out and need to do them tomorrow. I also have to do laundry and need to rake up fallen magnolia leaves. They are huge and don't break down. We have been watering the grass as we have not had any rain for quite some time.
little chance of rain this week.

Well I should find something to do.
We watched insidious chapter 4 which was not as scary as the first 3 were but we still enjoyed the movie.
Tomorrow I will work in the yard get sweaty and take a shower.

I remain alcohol free 7 days.
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Scale was 178 this morning.

Not happy about that but I binged snacked last night.
I was a crazy woman.
2 oz of almonds, tablespoon of humus, 1/3 cup dried cherries, half cup of dried mangos, 2 slices of turkey, 1/2 cup of tabouli, 3 squares of dark chocolate,

4 tablespoons of nerds candy.

All I can say is at least I did not drink.
sigh
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edited to say:


Just went to the bathroom= 176.7 so I will take that.
I should not weigh everyday.
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I am going to work in the yard a bit this afternoon.
hoping to plant some plants in pots.
I have a lot of dead plants and pots of dirt but no plants it is very depressing looking at them, from neglect...very depressing.
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It is over whelming me.....
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I worked a lot in the yard today. Raked leaves this morning then this afternoon dealt with the dead plants and gathered dry soil and mixed them watered them and added new potting soil to it in a big cooler. Used this dirt to pot the new plants(begonias, new guienne impatience, hostas, mexican heather,) I planted 8 planters full of flowers. I am tired! I purchased the plants and dirt from home depot 3 blocks from our house so that was convenient. Threw away several old/cracked pots and an old bird cage that had been up since we lived there, just never got around to throwing it away. The patio looks nice i would show you my pictures that I took but don't know how to load them on here from my phone.


The man, Ian is the painter who has finished the front door it is on horses on the patio so we are anxious for him to be done. We really like the door, it is lighter than we thought it was going to be but really like it stained this way. It really looks like wood though it is fiberglass.


I wonder why we have not gotten a bill for the foundation work. They made a mess of our yard dirt every where and sink holes, uneven ground dirt that needs to settle.
Again there is so much that needs to be done. I am proud of myself for doing what I did today. Jeff said he would help me water the plants.
I am good at starting things but the follow thru maintenance, not so good.


My feet are killing me need to get these shoes off.

I have sweated today and need to take a shower.
I already washed and dug the dirt out from under my nails.

Hoping to sleep well tonight.
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does any one read this?
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I do - I just don't always comment.

I'd suggest not weighing yourself every day - too much fluctuation related to water retention. I limit myself to weighing myself once a week, always on the same day and time. I figure that gives me a more realistic picture of how I'm doing.

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Thanks splitimage. Thank you for responding and reading.
I am desperate to see results and this is why I have been weighing in daily.
This weight came on over time, I need to be patient. IT will take time to get off.
My pdoc was very happy that i had lost 15 pounds and now I have gained most back so she will be disappointed in me.
When I gain weight like that I have been drinking, and she knows that .
sigh
she writes my scripts and I need her but am fearful of her.
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slept hard last night and woke up dreaming about being tortured.
My sister was there also. weird!
175.8 yay.
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Yes I read your thread . I think many do . It's like a diary , so in a way it just feels correct to read but not comment .

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Thank you so much, I feel better having read this and that you feel this way. I just felt I was being selfish or that nobody wanted to read what I wrote.
thank you again.
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today makes 9 days AF.
I am getting ready to go to the gym to walk on the tred mill.

Had a good dinner tonight from whole foods salad bar.
spinach salad with shrimp and some roasted brussel sprouts and parm cheese and ceasar dressing. Came home and knuked it for 3 minutes it was great! and it was a lot of food, also ate half an avocado which was very good.
Ate some dark chocolate and a tablespoon full of nerds again.
so good and satisfying.

Our yard man put down some grass seed on our back yard that needs grass. We are to water it daily one hour till we see grass coming up. I think I will water it in the morning before work. There looks some rain itomorrow, the rest of our yard needs rain.
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts ...your inner most ones and your random ones . Your hopes , your dreams , your demons and your actions . It's an honour to read them .

Get the unnamed painful area on your chest checked if the pain keeps up .

That's enough input from me ...back to the shadows ...with the rest who read your diary .

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Thank you Aussie,
I will keep an eye on my chest. It is not that painful but noticeable.
It is actually rather odd. I have never had any sensations like this before. I had a mammogram a few months ago as well as an ultrasound because my breasts are dense. Both came back normal.

Made it to the gym. I belong to planet fitness and have the upgraded membership in order to use their hydro massage bed after using their equipment. Tonight I walked a 5K, 3.1 miles for 63 minutes at a 5% incline
and supposedly burned 455 calories. Which I don't believe. The hydro bed is invigorating, I like it! It is only 10 minutes but really feels great! Like a reward for "working out".

Light work day tomorrow again, as was today, only seeing 3 clients.
I did half of my billing today during a break and will do the other half tomorrow. When doing billing I listen to music on an old cassette player. I am listening to cat stevens lately. In my car when traveling to clients homes I listen to the news on NPR or blue grass music. Istarted listening about a year ago. Today I was listening to "Oh brother where art thou?"
sound track.It is great and one of my favorite movies.

Tonight marks day 9 Alcohol free.

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When I start seriously dieting then it is easier not drinking because of the extra calories. Going to the gym is also a no brainer.
Today I think I will have chicken salad and creamy of squash soup that hubby did not like. more for me!

(I had lost weight before that I was 168 on 3-22-18) my heaviest weight was 186.
This morning 177.

I have lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks since resuming my diet.
Slowly but surly I lose this weight. I can't quit trying.
I really don't want to disappoint Dr. Orazio.
When I don't drink, I am able to diet and lose weight.
sorry if I am repeating myself.....
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Bizi,

I can really relate to the drinking and dieting piece and not wanting to disappoint Dr.'s I lost a bunch of weight last year, and then put it all back on when I resumed drinking - I don't eat healthy when I'm drinking so that just compounds the problem. I've recently started taking the weight off again, but don't want to go in for a physical until I'm under 190 - I"m at 191, down from 214.


Keep up the good work with the exercise and staying AF.

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Thank you split!

You are close....keep at it!

I understand...I am going to try hard to lose this extra weight.
177.3 again this morning.
sigh
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Well we decided to go back to europe in the fall.
It was somewhat impulsively decided upon.
We will go to paris and prague the end of september. There is a klimt/artist exhibition that I am dieing to see.
So excited.
Airfare and hotel for the 2 of us= $2600. for one week.

Now to look at the areas and plan for the trip, things to do etc.
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