Daily Check In #3

Desoxyn,

While being addicted to nicotine spray, it isn't the best, it definitely beats the drugs you were using before. I'd think of it as a temporary tool. As you get more sober/clean time away from your drugs of choice, you can work on getting off the nicotine spray.

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I’m two and a half months sober! Down to 175 fighting weight, feeling great. Riding the natural high of being proud of myself. I’ve got good disciplined routines in place, eating great, and sleeping soundly. It’s nice!

Congratulations DarkVader. That's awesome.
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Congratulations DarkVapor!!

That’s wonderful!

What did you do to get so far along?

Lmao! Thank you all. I just needed a push and a shove from the long arm of the law. Probation is forcing me into it. Not that it is the suggested way to go. But I always have to learn the hard way.

Dang it - I should have posted yesterday. It was day 555. Oh well, 556 today!

Sorry to hear of your legal troubles DarkVapor, but glad to hear you are having success taking steps to remedy the situation. Nice job!

Still sober but lately been struggling with really strong cravings and urges to go off my Antabuse so I can drink. Not giving in, as it's so not worth it.

And not an addiction, but definite chemical dependence, I've decided to try to taper off my clonazepam this year. I'm having my first meeting with my pdoc about it on Tues. He's so far agreed to follow the Ashton protocol, although he doesn't know much about it.


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Thanks for your update splitimage. Great job staying sober in the face of strong cravings! Hang in there!

@splitimage... how much clonazepam are u on?

28days until I reach 1,300 days.

I'm prescribed 1 mg PRN & seldom use them unless as a sleep aid.

I'm an old stick-in-the-mud, but all I've got is a daily reprieve from this disease. I feel I'm jinxed. Why look behind me, when looking forward seems to keep me from falling on my ***. I think it's great that people share their anniversaries. I just don't feel entitled, for some reason.

@emgreen don’t beat yourself up you are worthy to yourself for whatever you accomplish.

greentires, I'm on 3.5 mg daily, so it's going to take me about 6 months to taper down to 0.

See my addictions Dr. on Tues. and really want to be able to tell her that I'm still sober, so that's good motivation for me.

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I hope it went well with your addictions doctor, splitimage. I read in another thread that you're having tenant problems. Kinda rough times, but hang in there.

Thanks emgreen. My appointment with my addictions Dr. went great. She was really happy that I'm still sober, despite some major challenges, including the tenant situation.

I also talked with her about my clonazepam taper and why I want to go off it. She supports it completely, and the taper schedule I'm proposing is basically the one she uses with her patients. And she says that if done carefully and very slowly people don't have bad withdrawal effects, it's just when you try to go to fast that you get problems and the horror stories. So that made me happy.

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I smoked DMT but too scared to breakthrough then felt really depressed again last night. Then today I was snorting ketamine and I don't even know why. I thought it would help with depression but it doesn't.

I'm so depressed it's painful. I was crying last night but now I feel nothing.

I want to be sober.. This time I really have had enough.. but then I go back to painful life.. I'll try to be more spiritual and meditate without drugs i guess..

I think I finally understand why I have to find spirituality and be completely sober... but idk.. idk

I took MDMA last night, had a panic attack and took 3 benzos and went to sleep.

I've really had enough with drugs.

This will be day 1 sober..

I am pulling for you Desoxyn. It is so worth it.

564; getting close to another cool number...

Desoxyn, you can do it. I know it's hard, but it really is worth it.

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Splits - You have a cool number series showing today. 2 - 3 - 4. Nice!

Yeah,thanks for noticing UpDownAround. It's kind of fun noticing different number combos - gives smaller milestones to be happy about.

I'm feeling really good about being sober, this time around.

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Today is exactly 6 months till 4 years. It’s 3.5 years sober...

Everyone keep up the progress.

Congrats!

Way to go greentires. Keep up the good work.
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Today is a number series day - 567!

UpDownAround, Nice number sequence. Keep it going.