[Raynaadi]

During the chat tonight we talked about gratitude lists. Its been said to me that a grateful alcoholic/addict won't drink or use. So....I had this idea when I was going to let my friend's dog out.

I'm gonna start a gratitude list and number it. Lets continue the numbers and see how high we go......even if we repeat the things we're grateful for, lets just keep it going. So if I leave off at 10, pick it up at 11. Lets see how high with gratitude we can get.

I am grateful for:

1. My sobriety
2. PC - Espcially our little fellowship of recovery, and how far I've come since I used to get drunk in the chat room here.
3. That when I went to let the dog out the clouds were clearing, which made me grateful that this horrid cold doesn't last forever.
4. My apartment and that I've actually managed to keep everything turned on.
5. My good little Honda that has lasted too long without an oil change.
6. My cat who is constant company
7. My computer because without it I wouldn't have PC.
8. My Grandma - Nuff said.
9. My boyfriend, because he not only loves me for me but he helps me learn more about myself every day.
10. Tylenol, well because I'd be absolutely miserable without it right now.

So..........pick it up at 11. And lets continue it. So we always have a place to come to be reminded that we all have something to be grateful for. Even simple things. PC is a HUGE part of my recovery, and I need this forum especially.


Rayna

11. I am grateful for my best friend chalmette.
12. I am grateful for Rayna who is always willing to listen and lend a helping hand..
13. I am grateful for my 2 feline children, Apollo and Triton.
14. I am grateful to simply be alive!

[splitimage]

15, I;m greatful to be sober.
16. I'm greatful to PC and the bodies under seige website for keeping me sane.
17. I'm greatful for having a good pdoc that the state pays for.
18. I'm greatufl that I have job interview today.
19. I'm greatful that I have someplace to go Christmas day where I'll be wanted.
20. I'm greatful for AA and the fact that they keep welcoming me back.

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[Raynaadi]

I'm grateful for:

21. My sobriety
22. I made it to my friend's and back to let his dog out in the insane and thick FOG that I'm so not used to driving in.
23. My sponsee that called this morning just to check in.
24. I get to be of service to my grandma today.
25. The fog is lifting and it is starting to dry out so already my body is feeling better.
26. My medication for MS even though it makes me hurt the morning after, at least is keeping bad stuff from happening.
27. That even though its hard on me to check on my friend's pets all these days, I'm helping a friend, and helping others always gets me out of myself.
28. Coffee
29. PC and this forum especially.

[Raynaadi]

Oh and

30. I'm grateful for the opportunity to work the steps with others, because nothing ensures my sobriety more than working with others, and its such a wonderful opportunity to help as others helped me in the beginning, and continue to help me now.

[Cyran0]

I haven't posted here because right now I'm not feeling grateful for much. I know I should but I don't.

So here goes, what can I dig up that I'm grateful for?

31. That I found a new T that I like.
32. That the producer/director team I was writing for liked the new script.
33. That my children are safe and happy.
34. That I can write.

I think that's about it for me today. Still, good exercise as two minutes ago I didn't think I was grateful for anything.

Cyran0

[Raynaadi]

Isn't it amazing how we can always seem to find something when we really search for it?

35. I'm still sober.
36. I finally got called for a job interview!!!!
37. I know I've done the necessary footwork and after the interview its out of my hands, and will work out exactly how it's supposed to.
38. I'm soooo grateful I have that attitude about the interview and possible job because its so much easier to enjoy my evening.
39. I'm sticking to my commitment and going to the monthly general service meeting for Tucson AA tonight, even though I REALLY don't want to.....
40. Watching my friend's pets means I'm borrowing his TiVo to record the show I'll miss because of the meeting.
41. Vocational Rehab helped me get a kick arse interview outfit so I'll be confident tomorrow.
42. The rain stopped today.
43. Grandma's phone got fixed.
44. Dad got kudos at his job and now his employment isn't in jeopardy like he had feared.

[splitimage]

45. I;m still sober.
46. A woman from my AA mtg sent me a bunch of cool recovery related e-mails last night.
47. I think I did ok on my phone interview for a job I really want.
48; My pdoc finally got back to me to reschedule an appointment that she had cancelled.
49. I have a whole slew of new recovery related books to read.
50. The hospital I go to is running drop in groups for all the addiction patients every day between Christmas and New Years.
51. I have another job, that looks interesting that I[m applying to today.
52. My harp playing is getting better.
53. I overcame my fear of dentists and made an appointment to see one next week (first time in 9 years) (ok so I'm not really greatful for this one but I see it as a positive in my recovery, and I am greatful I can afford to see a dentist).
54. I have a warm appartment that I can curl up in and watch the snow fall.

[Raynaadi]

55. I'm sober
56. I'm getting laundry done nice and early so I can get ready for my interview in plenty of time.
57. My friend comes home tomorrow...one more morning of letting the dog out.
58. I got to compile the list of January AA birthdays for my homegroup and my boyfriend is on it. We have a total of 382 years sober for January. (Big homegroup)
59. I have mac and cheese to put in the oven soon.

this will be short, as i am getting sleepy but i wanted to add to the list.

60. I am absolutely, completely, wholly grateful for my son who(wow, my son - saying that feels fantastic) is currently growing in my belly.
61.I am also greatful that my coming son is perfectly healthy.
62.I am making progress with not smoking. Less and less smoking every day.
63.I am alive and pretty much healthy at the moment.
64.I am experiencing much emotional stability for the last while and currently.
65.Every day I get better at dealing with life's little problems.
66.I had some great food today.
67.I am greatful for chocolate mint candies, because they are yummy.
68. PC, PC, PC.
69. I am greatful that I get to move out of my apartment where my landlords are so mean and horrible to us, and I get to look forward to moving into somewheres that will feel like home.
70. I am reading a new series of vampire romance books, that just take me away. I am greatful that I have found really great books to escape in, instead of alchohol or drugs.
71.I am greatful for realizing that more than just alchohol and drugs can make you happy.

wow, i guess im greatful for more than I thought!

[Raynaadi]

Its amazing how it just comes eh? Mine will be short cuz I'm exhausted.

72. I'm sober
73. My interview went amazing and I'm anxiously awaiting a phone call tomorrow.

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74. I'm sober
75 My women's AA group is having it's christmas party tomorrow am and I'm taking a cheese tray.
76. My life is so much better today than it was a year ago, even though things are still hard.
77. I've started watching the complete X-files DVD collection that I ordered as a present to myself.
78. I've finished all of my christmas shoppign and now just have to wrap it and get it into the mail.
79. I have lots of lovely books to read over the holidays.
80. I'm not craving alcohol.
81. I wasn't embarrased giving my group sectretary my new dry date, and he was really nice about it.

[DePressMe]

82. I am sober.
83. antipsychotic medications
84. A good pdoc who never gives up
85. My friend Joanne who let me stay with her last night so I would not hurt myself.
86. My parents and my brother
87. All the material things I have...car, computer...
88. I have a good job
89. My physical health

That is about it for now...

[Raynaadi]

90. My sobriety
91. Meeting with my sponsee today and getting a message from another sponsee.
92. Sponsees. They're the light of my life.
93. Being a part of the group conscience for my homegroup, however annoying it may be.
94. My boyfriend and the hurdle we just jumped over together.
95. My heater that I'll be turning on shortly.
96. My warm jacket.
97. Having a roof over my head.
98. Having a computer so I can be here.
99. Coffee for the morning.
100. Law and Order on tv right now.

[splitimage]

101. Being sober
102. Not being in the hospital.
103. My woman's aa luncheon was really fun, and I got a box of candies in the present draw.
104. I have a financial safety net, in case I don't find a job.
105. I'm about to go get a coffee from starbucks.
106. I have a warm apartment from which to watch the snow swirling.
107. I'm reading some good recovery literature.

[Raynaadi]

108. Sobriety
109. Talking with my best friend on the computer and helping her through some things which helped me through some things, and then meeting her at a meeting I wasn't planning on going to.
110. The frozen pizza I popped in the oven to eat before league.
111. Seeing more friends in recovery at our pool league later this afternoon.

[Raynaadi]

112. I'm sober
113. I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!

[splitimage]

114, I'm sober.
115. I'm pretty sure I aced my microsoft access test, so now i can add it to my skills list when job hunting.
116. I got a compliment in group therapy today and was able to believe it.
117. I have a new book to read on stopping self harm.
118. I see my pdoc this week.
119. I get amazing support from BUS (other on-line support group.) and some stuff was posted that made me feel not quite so alone.
120. My women in recovery group is running christmas and new year's eve (I thought they might be cancelled.)

[Raynaadi]

121. I'm sober
122. Recovery chat was awesome again last night
123. I start work tomorrow!!!
124. I still have today to hang out with Grandm which made her very happy.
125. I managed to get up at 6 this morning to start preparing for getting up early to work.
126. I'm amazed that I'll be working by the end of the year, just like I had hoped......

[splitimage]

127, I'm sober
128. I got my drivers licence back.
129. I have good dental insurance.
130. My dental checkup (first one in 9 years) could have been a lot worse,
131. I've mailed the last of my Christmas presents off.
132. I can go to lots more AA meetings now that I have my car back.

[splitimage]

128. I'm sober
129. Dental insurance (seriously the bill was over $1000 and I'm only 1/2 done).
130. I was able to reach out to someone who is in distress.
131. warm saltwater mouth rinses for when your teeth and gums hurt.
132. A gentle dentist and an even gentler dental hygenist.
133. My pdoc was reassuring about writing the ministry of transportation about my mental and emotional stability to drive.

[Raynaadi]

134. I'm sober
135. Half days at work on Fridays
136. Crocs
137. Bf's office work party and everybody drinking just pretty much revolted me and made me laugh at their silliness
138. Its Friday

[youOme]

139. for all the second chances
140. and for all the thirds
141. for my babies
142. for acceptance
142. for forgiveness
143. not feeling guilty anymore
144. feeling proud of myself for the first time
145. and of course, one day at a time

[DePressMe]

146. For being clean and sober
147. That my parents are coming to MY house for christmas
148. An unexpected holiday bonus I got on my paycheck!!!! WoW!
149. I have an amazing brother
150. The second chance I have had at life...

[Raynaadi]

151. Soberness
152. Waking up in a silly mood
153. Chalmette
154. COFFEE!!!
155. Its Saturday and that actually has meaning for me now.
156. Feeling like I was productive at work yesterday on only my second day, remembering things and getting all my sticks.
157. The meeting I'm going to at noon.
158. The sober holiday party I'm hopefully going to tonight.
159. PC
160. PC