Daily Check In #4

Sober for another night. Spent productive, not harmful time on the computer. managed to eat, see family and friends and get goals done. I even cleaned my dishes, look at me!

That's great. Keep it up.d

I will, you too!

I've noticed this past weekend, an increase in the number of TV ads for alcohol, and I know it will only get worse as Christmas approaches.


Even though I'm totally committed to staying sober, I find these ads triggering because they romanticize alcohol, even though I know it's poison for me.

Any one else find alcohol ads gives them cravings?

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I avoid tv completely, but I imagine I'd find that triggering. I find get togethers with family triggering, they are all offering each other drinks and drinking in front of me. They drink moderately, but it sometimes drives me nuts. I've learned to live with it and accept I can't drink with them. It's alright if my dad and my brother have a beer, I don't need to have one, I don't even like the beer they are drinking, I just want to feel included. I find other situations where I am faced with confronting alcohol, like going to a bar with family or fortunately sober friends, triggering too. Anything that brings it back into consciousness can be difficult, but you have to keep your resolve, stay serene and let it go. Your disease is always going to be doing pushups in the parking lot, but you can still use wisdom to outsmart it.

Starting in a couple of weeks, I'm going to be hosting a live chat on co-occurring substance abuse and mental health issues, on another platform. I'm really excited about it.

I've been looking for something like that, let me know where it is please and I'll tell people I know about it.

pm'd you.

I'm craving cocaine so badly

Hang in Desoxyn, You can get through the cravings.

Change in schedule has me hosting my first concurrent disorder meeting tonight, so I have to prep for it. I'm very nervous.

Will go to a double recovery meeting this afternoon to get some ideas.

Went to bed: Craving
Woke up: No craving (Because of DMT-like dreams..)

Way to go on not giving into the cravings and not using.

Congrats Desoxyn!

Chaired my first concurrent disorders meeting last night, and it went pretty well. Fortunately another guy who I attend a lot of meetings with who also hosts a meeting volunteered to be a co-host and he really helped me with moving people into the room while I was doing the readings.

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My meds are: Invega Trinza, Dexedrine, atenolol, zopiclone, olanzepine, clonazepam PRN.
Supplements are: Vitamin D, C, fish oil and melatonin
Nootropics are: Ashwagandha, CBD, nicotine, coffee, phenibut, weed

So far so good. Getting back on track. I drank one drink last night and it made me dysphoric. I haven't drank in almost a full year. I don't like alcohol.

I'm dependent on phenibut again.

I want to be sober - But I don't know how to deal with the immense pain. I've been doing this for years.

Drugs are a slow suicide for me. I should be dead. I don't know how I'm still alive. I don't want to be alive.

Feeling better today after sleep

I've already got the addiction in control which was a result of self medicating. I will likely stop that now that my meds are adjusted properly and will possibly grow out of using drugs or at least start exploring very cautiously idk.

Glad to hear that you're meds are adjusted. Hope you're doing well.

Its official as of yesterday.

7 years sober. I've finally lost the appeal and taste for it.

Congratulations Greentires4me, that's an awesome number.

Congratulations paularo, 7 years is huge.


Welcome and hope you'll keep posting.

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I smoked weed and took a xanax. I just don't care about trying anymore.

My mom and sister had a fight last night. I don't understand the abuse and neglect that we endured and I'm jealous that my sister is leaving me with my mom - A histrionic dramatic alcoholic in denial.

All the things I planned to do for self improvement are meaningless - Either no one cares or they criticize me and say that the things I do are just a phase and I should focus on one thing.

I wish I could get really ****ed up on something. I'm suicidal almost every day.