grrrrrrrrr

In my opinion, I think that AA could play a pivotal role in your recovery. So, if you can figure out a way with your therapist to persuade your drinking alter to let you stay the whole meeting, then that would be great for Kiya.

Kiya, perhaps sitting yourself and your alters down at the computer at www.rational.org and go through flash cards at recover now, will make a difference. It works subliminally on the addictive voice it might act on your alters. Peace

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Being dry for 8 days is great.

(((((((((((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))))))))))))))

If you're ever needing someone to talk to, send me a PM ok?

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Thank you Christina!!! We've had one blip, but I upped the med dose like i told her i would that night. She didn't like it and hasn't repeated the offense. Tonight's a hard one - my best friend who died (today 7 years ago) loved Midori Sours and so we had one every year on this day as well as his birthday.... i can feel the pull. Last year we got through, but this year is feeling harder. Kiya

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Kiya, perhaps sitting yourself and your alters down at the computer at www.rational.org and go through flash cards at recover now, will make a difference. It works subliminally on the addictive voice it might act on your alters. Peace

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Curious - thanks! I'll look into that! Kiya

((((((((((((((((Kiya))))))))))))))))))))

You can do it. What about having some fun in Games here, or finding something relaxing to do? I'm sorry about the anniversary.

when i take a drink i cant quit til im in detox. im the kind of alcoholic where if i drink its a mental & physical obsession & in a matter of a couple of weeks my body is so saturated i cant function. i will hide drinks sleep with them by my bed wake up with the shakes throw up & keep on drinking. they told me when i was 25 if i didnt quit i would most likely have cirrhosis of the liver by the time im 35. im 34 & have had relapses but i havent drank since march 2007. im currently watching someone a couple of years older than me drink himself to death. he has a wet brain. very sad & frustrating to watch. i pray for him. every time i had a relapse it was like picking up where i quit before & went downhill faster each time. i also started doing some really risky erratic behavior the last couple of times. it was like the manic phase mixed with alcohol made me a crazy person. situations where i shouldve been dead but God rescued me. living for Jesus & being obedient to our living God is the only true happiness found on this earth. not in a bottle crack pipe pills. although i am on meds--zoloft & klonopin & a family member manages my klonopins for me cuz i have abused those before also. i just hope i can help someone by sharing my not so good memories. or what i can remember. i think between the ages of 18 & 25 i was in a constant blackout.

Best to you, Trixie

i hope u will be ok. i know its hard thanks for your kind words

(((kiya)))

how are you now?