[onlymedid]

I'm sorry if I am being annoying with my posts or getting on anyone's nerves. I just don't know what to do right now. I called T to see if I could get in to see her today instead of waiting until after work on Monday, but she doesn't work on Fridays and said she doesn't have daycare for her kids.
I wanted to talk about what happened at work yesterday and about the fact that my anxiety has been over the top all last night and today.
She asked if I would be ok over the weekend and I lied....I said Yeah. She said she will see me on Monday and I said "OK, see you then"
I am not ok. My anxiety is still there. Every time the phone rings, my heart jumps and my breath worsens. I can't get enough sleep because my heart keeps racing and I feel horrible.
I don't know WHAT else to do besides write about it here. I am trying so hard to cool down and just relax, but I can't
No need to respond, necessarily, I just needed to get all of this out.....maybe it will help?

[ECHOES]

Could you call her back and tell her you are now not alright and really need a few minutes to talk to her?

[Typo]

((((((((((((Onlymedid)))))))))))))

I am glad you came here and wrote about it, sometimes it helps to get it all out in a safe place.
I think echoes has a good idea, and if T isn't avaliable keep writing here hun, your welcome to pm me anytime

Somethign I find that helps is going for a walk, or doing somethign physical to focus on, or a puzzle, I find when I have something to focus on sometimes it makes the anxiety more managable or gives me temporary relief. Try some breathing excersies too,

Sending lots of warm safe hugs to you
Sparrow

[theotterone]

It's hard, especially when you are feeling anxious and vulnerable. You tried part of your support system, only to be turned away. It didn't help matters.

Try to calm down with what you have been taught. Then take a look at the people in your life. Who can you rely on, who accepts you as you are? I have created "support systems" in different areas of my life. I have the people in my personal life who are there, and at work too. Luckily, I work with my Best Friend and my lead is also a friend. My boss is understanding and supportive (if not a lot surprised at Otter 2.0, he was gone for three months and I started ADHD treatment with meds). At home, D is there, I have my mom and friends I can call on.

I know it is hard, but try to stay calm and do what you KNOW (it may be hard to access, but it's there. Start with little things: favorite tshirt or sweater, long bath, things that give you comfort). Know you are not alone and PC is part of your support system!

[onlymedid]

Thanks ((Sparrow)) That is a good idea about taking a walk, maybe I will try that tomorrow. I tried the breathing and it usually helps, but yesterday and today it didn't help AT ALL. It is weird because I never have such a hard time.
I don't want to call T because I don't want to bother her. Besides, I am feeling a bit better tonight.
It is very helpful to be able to come here, get it out and have support and not have someone look at me funny for feeling like crap and feeling anxious.

[onlymedid]

Thanks ((theotterone))! My husband is super supportive, my boss has been really supportive and right now...that's about all I've got...no..I lied..I have you all here!
I didn't think about a favorite item. I have my blanket and my pillow that I have had for...years!

Thank you everyone for all of the support. I feel so much better when I have peeps I can talk to who know what I am going through because there is understanding and compassion.