Daily "Drop Off Your Anxious Thought"

I've been noting under pressure i'm blaming more ppl which per a book i'm doing says that stems from anxiety. As i caught myself doing this i realized yes i was anxious about getting things done at work, i'm one that i have to get everything done, can't leave anything undone. Afraid of being yelled at, disappointing others and more sucks but it's working progress

My thought: my best and only friend in the entire world hates me and is, right now, laughing me into oblivion in his head. He wants nothing to do with me because I nag him too much and my identity seems to change, ruining any expectation of consistency he might have in greeting me from day to day.

I just wish one of my many doctors would break down and send my info to the disability people! Its like one keeps telling me the other should be doing it, and I'm about to lose my job if someone just doesnt send in the dang info!

I feel like I've lost my creativity since I not hypomanic anymore. I'm afraid I'll never be able to do art again.

My thought: I feel like my family thinks because i have a mental disorder that i can't "handle" any information. I live 500 miles away and it's like pulling teeth to get any info about how everyone is doing. To make things worse, i barely heard from any of them on my birthday, just yesterday. I know it's selfish but i'm feeling very upset that they dont seem to mind that i'm not around anymore.

I am worried about managing financially over the next few weeks.

Glad to hear S.O. is recovering and good luck with your finances.

muncie, I love that quote! it's perfect.

anxious thought-I have a bad sugar habit.

About to have an anxiety attack in class. Worried about something, but also haven't eaten. Not a good combo.

wow its amazing how much we all worry about the same things! Today I was worried about taking a new medicine, about never getting better, and losing my husband or baby, about being alone...AND I also got a package ready to send to my sister. I was worried that I crammed everything in too tight, so the crackers might crush. I realized that even the note I wrote to her had more of my worries in it. I worry tooooooo much. I love reading everyone else's posts. If I wasn't so worried about not getting enough sleep, I'd keep reading. Off to bed. Good night everyone. I hope we all sleep well tonight...see now I'm worrying about everyone else's sleep! gahhhhhh that's it! ha

I've just failed a subject thus throwing about $2200 down the drain and get myself into depression. And this is not the first time. Well done to me! Well done!

To anyone who thinks that no one wants to read a long list of everything you are worried about...I would LOVE to read it. It would make me feel better about my own long list, and the longer it takes me to read your post....the less time I think about my own worries

I'm worried about...
1. My husband being gone on his work trip and me not being able to care for our two babies on my own.
2. My medicine not working, or working in a way that would cause me to lose control.
3. The dog being outside by himself, even if it is in the sunshine, because my dad doesnt want him in the house while visiting him this weekend.
4. My baby's diaper rash.
5. Mailing my sister's package
6. Finding a store that will let me exchange the size 1 diapers I have for size 2.
7. worrying about the fact I worry about stupid things

AnotherDayDown, isn't it funny how everything is relative. I don't mean to trivialize your situation; this is a time in your life when many demands are made on you. But think on the positive side, you have your youth, a husband and two beautiful babies. I envy you, I'm a senior lady and my husband and I didn't have a family; I'm lonely in my old age. Count your blessings, and please don't misinterpret what I'm saying. I'm just trying to make you feel better by seeing another person's side. Try to arrange your days so you can squeeze in some "just me" time. Maybe a relative or friend could help out. Take care and have a good day.

I wont get better
I wont be able to work again
My husband will leave me
I'll lose my house
I'll end up in the hospital again
I'll never get a day when I dont cry
I'll keep gaining weight
My husband is addicted to porn
One of my pets will die
If I do go back to work everyone will be mean to me
I'm physically ill just don't know about it yet
ok I'll shut up now lol

i feel like leaving or dropping things, i do believe it is due to anxiety- maybe some other things too- but at the same time, anxiety about a dumb thought in my head...

Where to start?
I worry that I don't write the right things, or I mess up along the way and I worry that people interpret that I am unintelligent or a loser. I worry about people judging me, or writing me off completely. I worry that people get offended when I say something that isn't quite right. I worry that I will always feel this way.
I can't get out of my own head and stop replaying everything I say or write or do over and over again, imagining that everyone think that I'm weird and awkward and pathetic. I worry that I am not liked. I'm afraid that I won't be understood and I'm worried even I as type this that it's the wrong thing to be posting.
If this is wrong then please tell me, I hate to think of anyone reading it and getting angry at me for not knowing the protocol.
Thanks

I am extremely anxious about going to my doctor today and asking for anxiety meds. I hate asking because I feel that it looks like I'm a drug-seeker, but I can't let myself keep going like this. Antidepressants screw up my mind and body. OK, that does feel better, thanks!

Thank you to everyone who has been sharing. I feel less alone when I see other people feel the way I do and share some of my worries.

I am anxious about going to my sewing class. My medications slow me down and the teacher moves quickly. I also missed last weeks class so I am behind any way.

I also worry about my slowed cognition being obvious to others and that they will know something is wrong with me and think I'm Odd.

I am anxious I will never be well enough to go back to work. Sometimes I think I could go back to work now and I won't because I am a bad person, if that makes any sense.

I feel a little better now!

Things I worried about.

My uncle had or has cancer and had a tumor the size of a basketball be cut out. He is having hard time with money. I'm sure if he cancer free yet.
That I will be lonely forever

I have the same problem.

I worried that that I will end up on the streets. Anyone else obsess about impending bad things happening?

Over the summer, my childhood friend died when he wrecked his motorcycle. He was only 23. I wish I had called him one last time.
Three weeks ago, my three month baby cousin died unexpectantly.
My heart hurts for them and their mothers.
I'm afraid of burying my own children.

UGHHHH I've got too many stupid worries to even begin leaving them all here. Okay, here's one-> I'm scared I won't be able to care for two babies by myself for the next week while my husband is away. I was doing fine, but when he told me it was taking longer than expected, I freaked out because it wasn't "in my plans." I hate things not going as expected, so I am just in a tizzy. I'm scared I'll be a bad parent while he's gone. I'm scared my anxiety will keep me from feeling okay. It doesn't make sense. I know I don't NEED him here, but when my emotions take over sometimes its easier to have someone to talk to.

I feel the exact same way about the clothes piling up in my house. It's like it never ends, so the task is hard to start on.

Yes I do that- a lot to be honest.

I think I will get sued for the bills I am trying best to keep paying, then I have to go bankrupt, then I fear I will lose my job (either by a "legacy personnel" that does not like me or that they are going to end the contractors contract (we are gettin furlo this year so that is even a bigger fear now than before) and i will be SOL out of a job) then what the hell am I going to do.
I know my boyfriend says he wouldn't let me just go on the streets (my boyfriend works at the same place that I do so that is another biggy on losing job if it is a contractors thing), but I don't think his parents would appreciate him and I there, I think they would take him in with no issue,

I would feel so useless.

I fear with other things too.. but I get told it is me over thinking....

My dad use to tell me : "Prepare for the worse but hope for the best" try to at least just so hard to prep one self when one self is living pay check to pay check.

Best wishes to you and all the rest that does such a thing