Daily "Drop Off Your Anxious Thought"

i want to change this thread a little bit. i am going to give my anxious thought to this forum and leave it here. i am also going to try to describe an action that i can use to help keep this anxious thought here where it belongs. i am going to two parties where i will know very few people. anxious about interacting with people, but i don't want to be the one who sits alone in a corner getting even more anxious.

i will do my best to keep the made up scenarios before the party to a minimum and to focus on others instead of being so wrapped up in me and how i am feeling.

I'll never get better. I worry that my illness has come between my daughters and me, that they don't respect me or want to be around me.

I am having horrible anxiety related to seeking employment. I have pretty severe anxiety all my life relating to other things. So, I guess I know how to do anxiety all too well.

Really my diagnosis and treatment are for depression, but I think I get depressed in response to anxiety.

I am alone too much. Working was my main way to not be alone. This being alone with the anxiety is a bad thing. Even if I just talk to a neighbor, I feel improved. I live alone and there really isn't anyone that I can just call or go see.

Today I am having a hard time leaving the computer because I feel like I'm not totally alone here, and my fearful thoughts seem to get less when I am typing. I can't stay here. Well, I could, but that doesn't get things done. So time to turn my attention elsewhere.

I'll never be able to work as a nurse again.

I wont be good at my job anymore

may i suggest that you go to a library, park, store, community center anywhere there are people. it helps me to just see people doing things. it gives me a little gumption to go out and find something to do with people. many of these same places need volunteers. if you are able, just ask somebody that looks like they're in charge and see if there is anything you can do. i think real people contact is more fulfilling (though scary) than virtual contact. i wish you the best in getting out there.

my neck and back are as tight as piano wire. my job is in a service industry and i am so afraid of not pleasing the customer.

action for today...do the best job possible to help my clients.

I agree. I finally got out of the house around 2 today and studied in a couple different places. Changes your whole outlook in ways you can't imagine before you're actually doing it.

((((advena)))) I am maybe in the same boat. But I still try to hope I might have a chance. I know how that anxiety is. It's hard ...very hard.

anxious thought: i have a fear of not having enough money. the pressure is unrelenting. medical (psych) bills are killing me.

action: the bills will be paid a little at a time. continue to look for substantial work and believe that money spent on my mental health is money well spent. i don't have a chance at anything if i'm lost in fear and anxiety.

((((Advena)))) I read your post again. Sounds like for you this isn't just a fear or anxiety. You seem to think this is what will be. I'm sorry your illness has brought you to where you are. You must be grieving. I did not recognize how serious your loss might be.

Why is my memory usage so high??? I just got this computer 8 months ago, Oh lordie something else for me to worry about.

I see that just, one week ago, I had horrible anxiety. Well, it continued until I found out I probably hired for this part-time job. Now, I'm a lot calmed down. But I'm keeping my gut braced for something bad to happen on this job. If it goes good for awhile, then I might get a break from constant anxiety.

so freaked out that my husband will leave me because of my mental illness. He never gave me any reason to believe that but still...

I worry that my mood will always be unstable, I won't be able to trust my life.

Anxiety about the job continues.

(((((( Rose))))))
Once you get past your knees and start to swim it will get better, remember you do have real abilities, you can really swim.

I get that feeling until I am at a job and I am in different places all the time. Once I get there and start to do what I know best, the rest just falls into place.

Keep yourself busy and plan your clothes and clean something, that always help you feel better.

I think this is a good place to start for you Rose, just part time, easing into it again.

I shall keep praying that all goes well with you. As you know I have a lot of faith in you. I am here with hugs.

Open Eyes

That's very nice - Open Eyes. It's been a very low day. How nice to see your post.

I think that it is important to make sure we don't punish ourselves for not accomplishing certain things in our days. Sometimes we just are too critical of ourselves and when we do that, we can tire ourselves out.

I have been trying to mother myself more and be more willing to give myself a break for not just being able to jump up and be Mrs. Clean, or perfect house, or any kind of perfection. And I find that even though I am afraid of letting go of that driving person that I used to be, very hard on myself, strong task master. I am learning to give myself a break. And it really is a learning process to do this, because it is change.

Just as we need to do the work to get better, we also have be a bit easier on ourselves too, and that is part of doing the work. Being kind to ourselves, because we often are our own worst enemies.

Open Eyes

anxious thought: anxious about my father coming for a visit. i don't react to the abuse anymore, but it can be exhausting.

action: try my best to keep the conversation about things that don't give him an opportunity to abuse.

I would like to drop off my anger and frustration at having to live with my very elderly mother for the past 10 years. Frustration at never being able to figure out how to live peaceably with someone so different than myself.

I would like to drop off my worry about meeting a new T today. I'm sure she's not a serial killer and I will survive the appointment

economic insecurity is making my whole body ache and tense. bills from my mental health care (even with insurance) are bleeding me dry. the options are give up on improving my mental health with medication, doctors and therapists, or just give up.

action: cut down on expenses where i can, find a cheaper provider, hope for the best

perhaps you have the resources to have a home health care practioner to come to your home so you can have a break. if your mother can travel, there may be adult daycare facilities in your area that can meet her needs as well as yours. caring for an elderly parent can be exhausting. i wish you the best in getting what you need, as well as your parent.

anxious that i may say or do something "idiotic".. I am dropping the thought off, don't want it back, ever..