Daily "Drop Off Your Anxious Thought"

I got anxious over something completely stupid today. My boyfriend was playing video games, & he wasn't paying attention to me. I was dropping some pretty big hints that I wanted some intimacy, but he seemed to ignore them. I cried because I started thinking that I've "lost my touch" & that I'm getting too old & too fat. I'm only 21 & have only gained 12lbs since I moved in with him last August. Normally, I'm a fairly confident person. Sure, there are tons of things that I don't like about myself, & yeah, most of them are physical traits, but most of the time, I don't REALLY care about it. Sometimes, though, my thoughts turn against me, & all I can do is just cry.

Thanks for your posts. My heart goes out to everyone.

I am leaving this here.

This weekend I have to plan a function for a number of people. I have not even started the preparations. I am paralyzed by anxiety, have just spent the day in some kind of catatonic state.

This is nothing new. Most of the time I do nothing, but am drained of energy and look for excuses not to go out.

The worst part is that I love people, doing things for people, I am very gregarious. I used to have a well-paid profession which I loved.

Does anyone have advice about what you do when you are frozen into immobility?

He wants t sit down and have a talk. Talks drive me crazy! I just want to run and never look back!

PTSD is going to control me the rest of my life.

I want to see my therapist right now! She always makes me feel better.

Things were so much easier when I kept to myself.

I think I just had an argument with someone I really like. Please don't tell me I messed this up.

I want--need her to get out of my head. But it never goes away... My worry is that I won't be able to rid, or at least dull, these nagging memories, and anxiety before the school year starts and I'm forced to face what I've been running away from all this time...

I hope I don't get sick and end up missing appointments and work. About an hour after being at work, The student starts hacking and having trouble talking. So we cut the session short, and she tells me she's had upper respiratory infection for more than a month, just saw the doc, but hasn't gone in to get the meds.

My son's birthday is this weekend. I afraid I'll end up missing the party if I catch this

Looking for a job and having to meet new people, oh gosh I am so scared.

Parents won't stop fighting Mom wants to leave. Aunt is suicidal. I can't find a job and I don't have a car, so my mom thinks I am lazy and wants me to move out. I know she already had me when SHE was 19, but I'm in college and have no car... UGH

I am afraid i will never be normal again, worry about normal things. I want to be materialistic, i want to worry about paying my rent and having bad hair days, instead i worry about my sanity, losing my mind and never being my fun normal happy self again. I worry that the intrusive thoughts will never stop and my depression/anxiety will never go away. So i am leaving that worry here, and to God.

Thanks for this in with the good, out with the bad.

I'm worried I'll be like this forever!

Am I going to forget to do/get something before my son's birthday party this afternoon and mess the party plans up ?

I feel sick from nerves, Will this even work out? How am I going to tell them?

Will I always feel like this?

I just want everything to work.

This anxiety will end!

I feel like I sacrifice my whole self & give up any chance of getting anything I want just so he can have EVERYTHING he wants when we really CAN'T afford it. ;~;

I wonder the same thing about myself...:/

Is therapy really the best thing for me?

I'm scared to go to a new school, even if it's only half-day. I want it to work out so badly.

Upset about this morning... bawled my eyes out at the airport, but does she even want to talk to me or have I just embarrassed myself? How will the session go tomorrow? Will I start crying? Will my instructer be mad at me for not researching the songs?

Will they ever stop fighting? ...or at least realize it's makes my anxiety worse?

besides the ongoing anxiety, boss is on edge. this is exacerbating my mood to the nth degree. its friday. shes usually not here. grrr