Daily "Drop Off Your Anxious Thought"

Will he ever get tired of my anxiety and irrational fears and leave me? What if he gets sick of me always having to have him by my side?

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yup... that pretty much covers it.

Oh dear EXAMS

Angel
Xx

Still haven't had the talk. I can't take this anymore. Why is it so hard for me to have a conversation?

What if I need him tonight, but he's sick of me and my problems?

Just don't feel good. Sick of bouncing between anxiety, anger, and crying.

My therapist is on vacation and I'm not sure I can deal with today on my own! Too much to do today, too many people needing my time, too many expectations on me.

Ugh, my anxiety seems to get bad when we have severe weather and the lights have been flickering a lot tonight. It just makes me so nervous.

T tomorrow, after 3 weeks without....finally. I need this. But the thing is that I can't remember what I wanted to talk about...how is that possible

I can't stop worrying and ruminating about nearly everything.......

my pdoc quit and i will be getting a new one. he/she will be kind, and listen attentively.

I really need to move out of this bording home, being around one of the house borders makes me panicy/anxious and the amount of sugar I just consumed is not helping matter any, it makes me even more anxious.

They're fighting again... I can hear the yelling from my room.

My husband agreed to go to couples counseling on Saturday.and I'm afraid he's going to quit right away. He warned me that he's "outta there" the first time the therapist gangs up on him. I tried to explain that trained therapists aren't there to " get you", there there to improve the way the couple relates.

I'm worried about being locked up in a mental hospital again. Goodbye, worry.

I have to tell someone something I feel uncomfortable talking about tomorrow. I don't want to but it's in my best interest.

freaked out in the pool again tonite. can't believe people are so freakin disrespectful. breaking the rules. wrote a letter. thought, I have never screamed in my whole LIFE as much as these kids are screaming in one evening - and that's why I'm in therapy 3 times a week and it should be more.

I'd like to drop another thought off. It's about being worried I'll be kicked out of our church.

Facing July's bills, will I have enough money for food? I'm soo tired of going without food. The food banks are empty again. Only coming home with one or two items from each bank :-(

Will my pet recover without anymore high vet bills?

I don't have anything left to sell.

I am starting my new car payments in July, will I be able to keep my budget balanced?

"nobody really wants me at the cookout. i could just pretend i wasn't feeling well."

My neighbors are having their annual picnic. For me it is a reminder of how disrespectful they are. I have to keep my horses in tonight. Even though I spent so much time explaining to them about how loud fireworks are dangerous, and illegal and they are too close to my horses. Well they don't care they know I have cripples over here because they didn't care about their dog running over here and scaring my horses at night, no, they just didn't care. They started with the fireworks Saturday night. I thought they would at least wait until the 4th. I had to sit outside and calm my horses, it was too dangerous for me to try to handle them and put them all in the barn. No, I couldn't tell when they were going to shoot off the next loud one, it was too dangerous.

I wander around trying to do my chores around the horses and I am trying to figure out how to ignore all that has happened and that they are still enjoying their lives while my life has been so changed by their negligance.

Oh I could call the police just I had done many times. But as always they will hide the truth and my effort will remain fruitless.

While cleaning paddocks I found rocks that had no reason for being in the paddocks, and I hate to think perhaps they are throwing rocks at my animals while I sleep.
I never did anything to them, yet they want to tresspass on me, why?

When I found the rocks and went to put them in yesterday because it was going to rain, they were very frightened and hard to handle. All the years I spent training them, they never behave that way, and I can see my horses looking over and worried about that activity that comes from next door, what will hurt them next? I cant think of the 4th as a celebration, because I have to sit in vigil the whole time they are celebrating as, like my animals, I wonder what will happen too.

It gives a new meaning to a stones thow away. Baseball size rocks that come from where?
I never see this stuff coming, not in my realm of reasoning at all.

I know I cant truely leave this here, perhaps just some tears.

Open Eyes

Will anyone ever love me? Will I make it though school, and get a good job?

I am going to get into a wreck

When I am afraid my mind is going to crack, will it really crack? Will it one time stay broken forever ??

I'm in couples counseling w my husb. I'm worried that it won't work and nothing will change, then I'll have to get divorced, which I don't really want to do.

I'm also worried that I'll always feel empty like this.