[Sabrina]

I became extremely angry a short while ago on a work related (yet also personal) issue. My anger is justified but the way I reacted isn't.
I am still shaking. I am still a little dizzy. I just wolfed down some food without chewing. The tears are still trying to squeeze out. My stomach is in knots and I have what feels like a piece of plastic wedged in my throat (probably the unchewed food). I am still breathing as if I just ran a marathon.
My head hurts. My eyeballs hurt.

The feeling of panic is overwhelming.

The issue that sparked this is so small. Yet frustratingly big to me.

Going to head off to gym which I have been trying to do for a couple of hours. Hope the exercise will tame the panic trying to break through..

Thanks for letting me vent.

[brianm101]

Hi Sabrina....
Do you want to talk about it? It sounds like you were hurt in some way. If you need to talk just post or pm me. I am here all nite.

[Sabrina]

Thanks so much Brian. I don't know if I am hurt as much as what I am frustrated. It is work I have been doing for my father-in-law for years but that is so frustrating as he just does not communicate or co-operate with me. He has no business sense and is as scatter-brained as anything so is constantly forgetting stuff. What angers me too is that he patronizes me and talks down to me as if I am a school child. He also blames me for stuff that is entirely his fault and if he had done as I had asked in the first place, would not have happened. I have even resorted to sending him stern memo's. All to no avail. He is adamant I have not mentioned stuff to him when I have put it in writing a number of times. He is a cool father-in-law but as someone to work with, he drives me to despair. I do not get paid for the work in lieu of an agreement with my husband. So because I am helping my husband I can't just chuck it in and that, is of course just what I want to do.

I just feel that I have had enough of it. My husband is fully aware of my feelings and supports me much of the time but also feels that I am overreacting at this point. He cannot handle seeing the signs of a panic attack because of something so "stupid".

I also realize my intense anger is because of fear! Fear because my husband will oneday have to support FIL and family because his poor business sense and erratic spending are destructing him and his family.

Oh boy - you asked if I wanted to talk! Well, I sure just did. I am supposed to get off to gym but I keep lingering around. And I really do have so much work to get done. I am not really helping myself here.

Thanks for listening.

[brianm101]

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My husband is fully aware of my feelings and supports me much of the time but also feels that I am overreacting at this point. He cannot handle seeing the signs of a panic attack because of something so "stupid".

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He better start listening...lol. I think that I can relate. I worked for my father for years before I realized that I was being taken advantage of. From what I understand is that you are caught up in the middle of it. I think that you need to just tell your husband that you can't do it any more. If that might be too much then just tell him that you want to pursue something else.
Good luck my friend and I wish you the best.

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS )))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS ))))))))

Thinking of YOU today.......

LoVe,
Rhapsody

[CJR520]

I am thinking of you! Sounds like you need out of the situation. Anyhow, good luck!!

[Sabrina]

Thanks so much. I blew up at him again yesterday. The whole thing has made me tired and despondent. I am now behind in the work because it such an effort to do something I don't want to.

Thanks for thinking of me.

[lavendersteph]

hey sabrina you r symptoms are so common with stress and anxiety i hope things work out for you so you can relax abit take care sweetie things will be ok love,

stephy

[Sabrina]

Thanks so much Steph. I will be ok as long as I don't take any of this out on my husband.