Thoughts that your life is ending soon?

I don't know which forum to post this in and finally decided on this one, as perhaps this is an anxiety issue? (or at least I'm hoping and praying it is!)

Yesterday I got this .. I don't know if it was a feeling (intuition?) or thought ? that I'm going to die soon; that my life is nearing it's end. Today this feeling is still sticking with me. I just .. I guess there's just this feeling that these are my last day. Perhaps days, perhaps weeks, perhaps months. I don't know, truly, as it's a vague feeling. But it's like I should be enjoying these 'final' moments and making ammends with people in my life because I won't be around much longer.

I am not terminally ill (that I know of! ), I am only 31.. I do have depression, an anxiety disorder, OCD personality traits, and borderline personality disorder. I am HOPING and PRAYING this is OCD nonsense or something. But honestly I'm now petrified. Like WHY do I feel this way? Is this intuition?!

I guess I need to know if anyone's ever felt this way? Is this part of the disorders? I'm scared out of my mind! Is this the disorders, or my subconscious trying to tell me something?

Let me clarify: I am NOT suicidal. This is NOT a 'plan' to kill myself, I have absolutely zero desire to harm myself.

Help!

Your not alone, I have this quite often. Actually, I have it stuck in my brain that I will die young. It doesn't really bother me though, not sure why?

Felt that way from the time I was 15, I gave up the thought/feeling/belief when I 'survived' my 25th birthday, bcoz clearly, I was wrong. I have no idea why tho.

I have a sense of impending doom. I don't know if this is the same that you have.
I feel the Earth is full of violent people, and they are going to start WWIII. I have been feeling this for a long time.My meds do help with some of my thinking. I always think this way when I watch the news, so I don't watch it that much.

Yeah I'm always thinking that I could be terminally ill, or that this could be the final day of my life. I struggle with it because it means I'm never making long term plans and I deal with anxiety by ignoring life and staying in my room all day.

I will probably see my doctor tomorrow and if I get good news I'll try and focus on something worthwhile for a change, rather than just trying to kill time, day in day out.

I do not exactly relate to this, but I do remember being horrified that life was just passing me by a couple of years back. This was most likely an effect of higher education, which demanded too much time. It helped me to make a list of the things I really wanted to do, and to do them...

In your case, I'm wondering... Would it be possible for you to conduct some tests? Perhaps that could help ease your mind a little.

Death also means different things to different people. So if you're scared of dying soon, maybe one measure of understanding this would be to see what about that scares you. It could be many things or one thing, but all of those are likely to be less final and huge than death, I imagine..?

Sounds like a product of obsessive thinking. I have often felt that I was going to die sooner rather than later but I trace that to a fear I have of what my future will be. Another part of me wishes I could die because I see no real reason to keep living when I am so unhappy. Maybe speaking to a tdoc would help?

It is just a feeling.....nothing real, doesn't mean it is going to happen. Anxiety is a bear anyway and can confuse us with bad nerves and irrational thinking.
Sounds like you have a lot of stress to deal with as well. Time to relax and see also if you are on the right meds. Try to get away for a while maybe just to go for a ride, shop, or whatever floats your boat.
I can just imagine how scared you were. I hope with all the posts you got that you are feeling better now. Feelings are simply feelings brought on by stress and anxiety and depression. Its o.k. You are o.k.!!

I have this feeling all the time! When I was little, I was extremely worried about my parents dying. I'd stay up crying all night, thinking that something was going to happen to them while I was asleep. Now a days, I have this eary feeling that I'm going to die any second, or the worlds just going to end. It gets really strong some days and it gives me the willies.
But, I'm still here, the world is still here, so I doubt this is my intuition talking

This is part of my anxiety to. Leads to panic attacks. Do You have the physical symptoms?

the lord is my shepherd

I have gone thru psychic deaths. Where I have felt like I "died" when I was physically still alive. When I had a mental breakdown in 1996 and when my aunt passed away in 2009. I could not believe I was alive and had the feeling, both times that I was waiting for death to happen.

Lately, I've been wondering if things are going to get really bad in the world and in my health, physical and mental. Esp after my aunt died, I have feared my mortality.

Yes, I have that feeling a lot.

And I just live as best I can every day.

It's scary. I feel similarly.

thanks,

Billi

PS:

I am comforted by the idea that "feelings are not facts".

B.

Feelings not fact! Perfectly worded!

Thank you everyone for the responses! I am no longer feeling this way (although my hypochondria is acting up INSANELY and I've convinced myself I have mouth cancer, lung cancer, hiv.. *sigh*). But even still, it's a different thing, not the sense of 'any day now, something's gonna happen' that I had when I typed this.

I see my doctor tomorrow and am going to ask about luvox, I think. It helps with OCD.. and that's definitely what I'm having at this point; obsessive, repetitive thoughts about specific health 'problems'. No matter how hard I try, I always come back to 'yeah but I'm sure I have..' or 'what if it is that?...' which, of course, causes anxiety and panic..

I'm frustrated. I can do so well for periods of time, and then BAM! It hits me again. I know that the next thing in this 'cycle' is depression over this anxiousness.. I can already feel that starting. Then I get mad at myself for falling after doing well.

GRRRRRR... does this roller coaster ever END?!