[chitown]

I have been working and working on my anxiety and just when I think things are going great, it happens! A trigger comes along and seems to shoot me down.
I have recently changed jobs and was loving my new job until I got into a really anxious situation. Then, like Pavlov's dog, I get back into my anxious thinking. I am scared at nights to be alone. My wife works nights alot so I spend the night alone and just try everything to make the night last as long as possible. I feel that if it does then tomorrow won't come soon. I worry over not getting enough sleep and all sorts of other items that I seem to just come up with.
I know that I need to stay grounded in the present and concentrate on the here and now, but am having a hard time.
I seem to vent this all on my wife, crying at nights sometimes crying till I can't cry anymore. I just wish it would come back up that darn hill again.
My T keeps giving me great coping mechanisims, but I don't want to cope, I want to get rid of these feelings. I don't want to have to do deep breathing, I want the situation not to cause that anxiety.
I am really not looking for answers or sympathy, but needed to vent, to unload, to cry a little.
Thank you. I learn quite a bit reading your posts here. I know I don't post alot, but I lurk and read. Thank you for your ears.

[shearmaniac]

You go ahead & vent. I know totally how you feel......HUGS

[chitown]

Thanks Shearmaniac!

[damajdancer]

Hi chitown,
Im so sorry that you are feeling this way, I hate anxiety!
But we are here for you, and if you need to, just say whatever you need to, and we will not judge you at all.
I hope you feel so much better!
lots of hugs,
-Megan-

[chitown]

Thank you.
I am working on being here not only for myself, but for others as well, as I have learned quite a bit about handling my anxiety and working on coping skills that I would like to share.
I hope to make someone else feel as welcome here as everyone else does to me.

(((((Chitown))))))) Anxiety attacks are the worst. They are so awful and scary. On top of that, they're embarrassing if someone else is there to witness. You're going to be okay though. You'll get past this and it'll be just a bad memory one day.