Everyone will reject me

The difference is people online reject you without having to say anything. They can easily lie to you about their true feelings. Then one day they can just erase you from their life. It's just the internet.

I don't think I can develop anything on the internet. I have gone through this "we're friends!" thing a lot of times. It repeats itself over and over. Eventually you split ways and the cycle begins again.

In the end~ I am alone.

Literally getting deja-vu at this point with internet people. I've seen it all before.

Though I guess that makes me smarter because I know when I should put my guard up and not take them seriously.

Internet "friendships" last like a maximum of a week or two for me.

Hi Stenierofthule.I'm truly sorry you feel this way towards me,i meant no harm ,and I'm still not rejecting you.Please feel free to chat with me.You are not alone.you are still on the earth for a reason,for your family and friends.i wish you peace.Again I'm truly sorry you feel this way towards a stranger trying to be there for you.Bless You.

I typically have heard of this one, for neuropathic pain with MSers that I've acquainted with, online. And also, from irl, someone recovering from back surgery. She asked for something different, felt spaced out. I'm barely familiar with its anxiety uses, yet, cannot blame you for not choosing this med.

Escaping through meds, is a means to not cope with strong emotions.

Are you considering the therapy route, upon emancipation from your parents?

Not sure what an MSer is.

No I'm checking into a hospital on Thursday maybe. Technically I am already free. I just don't disagree with people.

Therapy seems overall worthless from my past experiences with it.

MSer, someone with MS, multiple sclerosis, my apologies for the unfamiliar acronym.

I appreciate, your honesty, about not correcting my inaccurate take on your circumstances, for lack of disagreement. I.e., already free.

To be honest I find your whole way of speaking confusing to me. I can't tell if you're using sarcasm and outright insulting me. Are you trying to insult me?

No. I am not using sarcasm. No, I am not even remotely attempting to be insulting.

How dare you...

You're not really proving my thoughts wrong. If you were trying to be helpful sorry. I just find it hard to discern your posts personally.

This type of remarking, pushes me away, and in turn I become insulted. I am not here to prove a d@#$ thing. If anything, like I've told others, read in a quiet, soft tone. I speak softly, irl. But my writing comes from a strong inner place, hence seems like I am coming through the screen.
Sometimes my words are just black and white on the pages. It's too easy to slap internal emotions onto them.
If you choose to feel insulted, that's your choice,your call.

Tbh, I just felt, the inner rage within my own self, that brought about this post, to begin with...

Okay. Would appreciate you stop typing at me in an insulting tone. Again proving my earlier thoughts that you are being passive aggressive with me. Don't respond to me again please.

I have difficulties too when it's just text. I can't see any facial expressions or hear a person's tone of voice.

You neglect yourself if you allow others to walk all over you an ignore/exclude you. You have to show that you value and care about yourself. By changing how you view/feel about yourself, being more in harmony with whole self, accepting weaknesses, things you can 't control or change, and accepting respecting others as they are, you can have a better life. No one's perfect remember. We are all human and make mistakes and have faults. Its a waste of time and energy worrying about what others things of us, comparing self to others, criticising others, dwelling on negative things

You was honest to the counsellor. And thats because you want help and your honest. There is a difference between having hommosidal thoughts and carrying them out. Your trying to get help for your feelings. There was one time i had a strong feeling to seriously hurt a girl who had been treating me very badly. I was very concerned that i was feeling that way and as the urge was quite strong i called the police and told them that i was worried i was gonna hurt this person and i got my self put in hospital. Ive never had those kind of feelings before then or since.

Three times a week is a lot. I hope their not just trying to get more money. Best of luck x

I decided to just avoid the therapy route. I've tried it before and there is no point while things are the way they are now.

That is what I am planning on doing. Perhaps this will be the final push I need.

Good luck. Wish you all the best x

Thank you